Thank you all so much for your kindness. Today is my BF's third day (she has him on 25mg per day to start) and he is still feeling really pukey and kind of crazy in the head. I'm hoping that fades soon, but to me it already seems that he's already a bit less out of it.

Believe me when I say that living with someone who has a bad alcohol problem is an emotionally devastating experience. If I did not love this man 100% I probably would have split a long time ago just for my own health and sanity. But now that he is starting with TSM, for the first time I have actual hope that he will be returned to me permanently, and will be able to live the happy life he deserves. He's still drinking way too much, but it is such a weight off my shoulders to just be able to say, "Drink what you want, it's the doctor's orders and it will help you." It is so awful to try to control the consumption for someone who has no control over his actions, and to fail every time. It sucks to live in fear that he is killing himself with booze every day. Now I feel like I can relax a little bit.

Even though I know he feels horrible physically right now, I can't stop smiling. I have no choice but to believe in TSM like a preacher believes in Jesus. I so hope you all find success, and I hope he does too! Sorry for the long ramble, I don't have anyone else I can talk to about this. I realize my problems are quite small compared to those of you struggling with your own addictions. Good luck to all of you!

Bless you for having the strength and courage to stand by him. He's a lucky guy, and soon he'll be a healthy one too!

Your problems are no smaller than a lot of ours here. Sometimes it is even more horrifying witnessing a loved one harm themselves than it is watching yourself because you have absolutely no control over it. Also, a lot of us here are now drinking within relatively safe levels and have regained control of our lives... So, you should not feel the slightest bit shy about being here as a loved one of someone trying TSM.

nmarie33,

I think only alcoholics with wet brain or dead are too far gone. It worked for me. I think that there is 90% chance it can work for your boyfriend.

I started drinking in 1971. I loved it as did my friends. For the next 9 years, I drank as much as I could as often as I could, but that was no different from any of my friends. We drank, we smoked reefer, and we had a great time. When I needed to stop, I did. In 1980 all hell broke loose. I fractured my skull and had bleeding on the brain. I came thru the ordeal without any visible issues. However, the blow to the head damaged by brain chemistry. I starting having panic attacks, severe depression, wild mood swings, uncharacteristic rage, and the like. I was to afraid to tell anyone about these things so I drank to get thru the day. As you know eventually too much alcohol causes it own issues. Missing work, killer hangovers, broken relationships, guilt, remorse, risky and promiscious behavior, isolation, and undefined gloom and hopelessness. I thought about suicide every day for years. Thru shear determination, I managed to hang on and act like all was ok. In 1988, my missing work got so bad that the company I worked for, sent me to rehab. I agreed to go to AA. I lasted a few months and went back to drinking. . In 1990 , I again seeked helped. The next 7 years were in and out of AA. I managed to stay sober for 5 years once but I was a miserable SOB. The sign at AA meetings says 'You are not alone'. I was alone. I did not fit in. My AA group kept telling me I was a garden variety drunk and I just needed to turn it over and hit my knees. That did not work for me. I started drinking again in 1996. I lost two great jobs, spent time in two psych wards, two detoxes, and 6 weeks in a dual diagnosis hosptial after a lame suicide attempt. I thought of suicide every day for 10 years. After almost losing a third job, my home, my family, my friends, and myself; I went back to AA in 2006. I tried, I really tried. I did a 4th and 5th step. I went to meetings everyday, I got a sponsor, I came early and left late. I was not drinking but I hated life. During this time I found a doctor whom I finally confided in and she gave me the proper meds, l but I still hating not drinking. But I hating drinking alcoholically. I just wanted to drink moderately. I began to search for a differnent path. I found TSM on the internet and was instantly thrilled. I found it. Finally science. I read the book, kept a journal, and took Naltrexone 1 hour before drinking. I have been on doing TSM for 17 and I am cured. It works.

NALTREXONE + DRINKING = CURE



UNITS CRAVINGS DESIRE AF DAYS
PRE- 02/2006 100-200 10 10 0 ====> Began AA for the 15th time
PRE -TSM 50 - 150 10 10 0 ====> I was heading back to my old ways

WEEK UNITS Cravings AF DAYS
1 44 5 2
2 40 5 2
3 40 5 3
4 31 5 4
5 20 2 5
6 33 1 2
7 44 1 3
8 45 1 3
9 33 1 4
10 52 1 1
11 33 1 3
12 37 2 3
13 20 2 4
14 17 1 5
15 15 0 4
16 10 0 5 =========> on vacation. ten bars within walking distance
17 6 0 6 =========> on vacation for 4 of the 7 days

CURED WK 17

Regards,
Tom