Providence - Off and Naling Progress

Providence · **Posted:** Tue Aug 11, 2009 1:23 am

Week 17 -

Uneventfull really - 1 AF day units up at 78.

I have a few days where it doesn't bother me not to drink. Lately my biggest triggers are boredom and emotional stuff going on in my life.

Saturday night and Sunday pretty brutal for both.

I'm week 18, I hope I'm going to turn the corner soon.

AsRealityTurns · **Posted:** Tue Aug 11, 2009 3:44 pm

Providence, I completety understand what you are saying about boredom and emotional difficulties as I have those exact same problems. They both are exacerbated by continuing to drink, what a vicious cycle. But as you are, I am continuing and am watching the positive changes. Let's hang in there!

calikime · **Joined:** Mon Mar 30, 2009 5:42 pm **Posts:** 66

WaitingtoExhale wrote:

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Prov - we are at a pivot point and just need to hang on for now. There are a number of us right at this stage and it does feel a bit aggravating to not see more of a change. BUT, it is happening, even if it's in baby steps. We're going to make this happen. =)

WTE, I agree with this completely!! I am one of the ones at the same stage and am just waiting for the corner to turn.... I know it's up ahead!! We just need to keep on keeping on!

Providence · **Posted:** Wed Aug 12, 2009 7:40 pm

Wow!

Just wanted to let you know that I am on my 3rd AF day without even thinking about it. I went to dinner with a friend and it didn't even occur to me to take NAL and have a drink. Even after I got there it didn't occur to me to order a drink. No Stress, No "oh crap" just ordered iced tea and my meal, had coffee afterwards.

I haven't have 3 days in a row since I white knuckled back in March before I started this.

I still have hope!

AsRealityTurns · **Posted:** Wed Aug 12, 2009 8:59 pm

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That's fabulous! Three AF days! So happy for you!

houtx · **Joined:** Wed Apr 15, 2009 8:39 pm **Posts:** 872

Outstanding!! Unbelievable!! Fantastic!! Wonderful progress and post here - we are rooting for you!!

LaBear · **Joined:** Wed Apr 08, 2009 8:09 am **Posts:** 437

Providence that is wonderful. Going out for lunch or dinner is going to be one of my greatest triggers. Hope I can feel as you do!

Providence · **Posted:** Thu Aug 27, 2009 12:32 am

Week 20 -

This was a better week 3 days AF without effort my units are back under 50% of my pre TSM and my spike a few weeks ago.

Rough Weekend Sunday I was a little out of control. I am starting to see the tiggers more clearly everyday. The emotional ones are the ones that nail me. with Sunday always being the worse day.

I can get to about 3 days and if I don't try and I let myself just do it and not try to think about "why am I drinking" then it's goes down quickly.

The nightmares have return in full force. It seems everytime I go a few days without NAL they come back. They happen pretty quickly into my sleep and are becoming more violent each time. There is no drinking in my dreams.

soulbythesea · **Joined:** Sat May 30, 2009 6:20 am **Posts:** 238

Sounds like you are nearly there. I seem to rem somewhere else on the board a while ago someone speculating that the nightmares at this stage could be viewed symbolically as the last dying fight of 'the beast' (AL) as it is loosing control over your psyche!

Krazy1 · **Posted:** Thu Aug 27, 2009 10:56 am

Providence,

Glad to see you're getting results. Maybe everyone should start writing about these wild dreams - then we could combine them and publish a book! Maybe call it "Nal Nightmares: The Dark Side of the Cure"? :lol:

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