Thanks for the reply Nick.
Today I feel a thousand times better than the previous 2 drinking episodes.
Last night, I cooked spegetti for everyone. Fed everyone, kids and all, including myself. I knew we were going out to a sports bar to play pool. So I waited til after I ate, then took the Nal. I already had a headache throughout the better part of the day, so I cant say I had much of any sides from taking the nal to start.
Hour and a half later, we are at the bar. Weve met up with our friends and I start my pool sharking. (Longest games Ive ever played lol, no one could get a ball in.) It was an odd night. I ended up drinking what is probably equivalent to 6 full strength beers. 3 beers 9% and 2 beers at 3.2% al. Anyway throughout the night, I didnt feel much like talking to people. Normally I would be carrying on coversations with anyone in my path. My wife says I would get too "chatty". It was like I was a voyeur, content to just watch people.
Outside, smoking a cig, I person came up to me and started up a conversation. I didnt feel like talking much and found myself having a hard time really paying attention to what he was saying. What I noticed was....this guy is acting like I normally would be acting pre TSM. Just chatting it up with anyone. Im going to go out on a limb here and say that I seriously doubt he will remember me let alone the conversation we had.
I left my wife at the table, our friends had already left for the evening, we didnt want to lose our spot because it was becoming quite crowded. The venue was a bit younger crowd, which made very interesting scenery. Moving along, the person that "chatted" me up outside, kept me longer than I expected to be...so arriving back at the table, my wife wasnt too pleased that I took so long and accused me of probably being "chatty" with someone while I was smoking lol. I tried to explain the odd sensations that I was having...to no avail (Never keep a lady waiting!!!!)
I found that at times I chose to drink water vs the beer in front of me. I noticed that the beer really affected me alot faster and more even. I was fine just leaving with what we had consumed. I didnt race to finish my current beer to order another when the bar tender yelled "Last Call".
On the way to the car, a less fortunate person came up to us, started the conversation with hey nice car. It startled me because he came up from behind. For some reason I got really really mad....I yelled at him to get away, I dont have any money, and yes it is a nice car. (about to lose it actually) I found myself, looking at myself as I yelled at this poor buggar. Thinking why am I reacting like this?
Anyway he sauntered off fast.
Upon arrival at home, I asked my wife, who was preparing for bed, to pour me a half a splash of wine in the glass that I brought her. She said "Im not drinking any wine" I said, I probably wont either. So she poured a small amount in a glass. Had a sip and thought hmmm not what I really want.
I kept the glass anyway, wife goes to bed, and....I stay up a bit later listening to music on the Ipod. Normally this would entail a huge glass of wine, maybe 2 and passing out on the floor. Instead, the small amount of wine I had didnt go beyond one sip....but I did fall asleep in the chair outside on the deck.
Today I do not have that horrible hungover feeling that I had the previous 2 times. Getting used to the side affects now? I feel a tiny bit spacey, but not at all like before. However, I did have a hell of a time getting myself out of bed. I just sat there, thinking I should get up, but thinking I didnt get enough sleep.
Sorry to be so long winded, but Id like to look back at this for my own tracking purposes. Just from what happend in the above, I would call a huge victory for myself, and if this was the farthest that TSM took me....I would take it. I know its a long road....I sure hope this isnt the beginning of what they call the honeymoon period. Because its still a bit rough at this point, but huge, HUGE improvement to pre TSM.
A sincere thanks to all who have gone before me and continue to come back and help others.
hapful (did I leave anything out? lol)
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