I think I know exactly what you mean, although I don't think I have it to the degree you describe. I have had a big uptick in craving and consumption lataly, although haven't had/taken the time to post. [ABNYC, I've started TSM twice; first in January then got VERY ill and had to be on rx pain meds for a few weeks, then back in on in June]. The first time, about three weeks in, my drinking went up past pre-TSM levels. The same thing happened two weeks ago, a few weeks into resuming. Reading what ABNYC describes, I recognize it. It's a sort of free-form restlessness. Whatever I'm doing, I feel I should/want to be doing something else. Whatever I eat, I wish I'd had something else, although I cannot identify what. I change up my drink of choice from red wine to white wine to dark beer. The thermostat should be lower, then higher. Some elusive need is not being met. It's milder than what you describe, ABNYC, but it's real and I recognized it when it happened the second time -- and when you posted about it. My drinking and craving have shot way up during these episodes.
The good news: It passes. It did for me the first time and I can feel it subsiding again this time. I'm sure it's related to endorphin deprivation, which means TSM is working! As KrazyKris might say, it's the beast with its demands not getting met. I am better than the beast and so are you, ABNYC.
Anyone else experience this restlessness to any degree?
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