Week 22 , 23 , 24 Such enthusiasm to chuck smoking makes me declare my high hopes , yet it is a road I've trod many atime . It is true that alc is a big enemy to stopping the cigs
but it is also true that once a week or fortnight I still tend to have a heavy drink
and that is risk land for me .
Last night that happened and I was going up the wall wanting a cig and batled with idea to drive miles to get them as the evening wore on . Things just couldn't have been worse , therewas an ongoing row in the house where my wife decided to restart smoking and my daughter was begging for the right to officially begin and tap me for the funds to do it

Against this I myself was drinking more than usual to calm my smoking needs and the desire to smoke started rockettiing.
Awful , hideous night

I survived but can't have this happen again , either crack or suffer rottenly . And I'd just said that the week was easyish for the cig stop ? Well that's still true it was til last night .
Anyway I wish to go on with this aim but do not like the effect it may have on my drinking too . I'm not a stoic heroic but will just have to suffer some transfer of addiction in the short term , if I can do this now at the end of the hols and finish my six months extinguishing triggers somewhat .
Last two weeks I was away , not so far here in france with my wife's family . Drinking opportunities abounded and I had to to be strict to impose a couple of Af's
although drinking was nearly daily it was reasonable
wk22 = 2 AF's 40 uk units
wk 23 = 2 AF's 48 uk units
wk 24 finishes tomorow probly about the same total but 1 AF
Frankly I 'm sick of the long holidays so typical of france in the summer , really excessive and more so in academia , total death of the protestant work ethic
Quite lovely but bad news for Alky though
So in conclusion I feel I'm keeping the lid on alot of things but want to finish the hols
buckle my stop smoking and smash the habitual force of my drinking .
Role on the autumn !!
So that's where I am now and wanting it over to complete my cure , maybe a little parenthesis because I feel so ready to serial AF but will wait a week or two as I feel my limits tested quite enough for now .