eight days a week wrote:
Mike, I'm starting to fret a bit on your behalf about your trip - it's not something to take on if you're not cured by then is it, and it seems such a big risk to be counting on such a big change in just a few weeks?
If it were me I'd seriously think about tapering off the booze, aiming to finish before the trip starts, or reconsidering going at all (your friend will need notice for a replacement I guess). I'm sorry, I don't mean to be negative or stick my oar in (forgive the pun) where it's none of my business, I'm just worried for you.
Don't worry about the "none of my business" part. It is. We're all part of everyone's business here, which is to play a supportive and non-judgmental role in offering advice. I'll need all the help on the below plan, because finding a replacement at this stage is simply not an option. I appreciate your concern. My feeling is that things will work out. I am confident about that during the day. It's at night that I fret and castigate myself for overindulging the evening before.
I reckon I'll simply have to use raw willpower on top of Nal and not "drink as usual" as the treatment calls for. I've stopped cold turkey before, for periods ranging from eight years to a few months, to a few days. There's a switch somewhere in my brain that I don't have conscious access to, but when thrown, makes me lose complete interest in alcohol--even while watching my wife enjoy her evening wine--until suddenly the switch trips in the opposite direction and I relapse. I'll have to work on visualizing muscling this switch into the "off" position again.
The good thing is that there it is impossible to carry 40 days of enough wine on a 40-foot sailboat to support my roughly 2-1/2 litre a day habit. That would fill a quarter of the entire fresh water supply on board and we need all we can carry or gather from rain for hydration, cooking and an occasional light rinse. Plus, whatever spirits there are, will probably be beer since the Capt.-owner is German.

Beer is not my BOC. I don't really care for the stuff, besides it's so filling I find it hard to drink enough to get a buzz. Of course, I'm bringing a sufficient supply of Nal to last the trip, which I will take before having even a single beer. Plus life on board, with rotating 4-hour night watches, is not exactly conducive to drinking since that alternates the need for sleep with the need for alertness. No five-o'clock trigger in the cards. On a two-handed voyage like this, night and day merge as single, exhausting continuum.
Sorry for rambling, but putting my thoughts down like this is in itself therapeutic.
Mike