I don't get to see a physician until February 8 and I've been trying to control my drinking until I get to see the doc. I am not doing well. In fact, I am not controlling it at all. I am still drinking a bottle of wine a night. I feel very down and defeated. I know February 8 isn't THAT far away but it feels like an eternity right now.

Not sure on your history with this, but have you searched around for a TSM doc who might be able to see you sooner?

Unfortunately not. I live in a very rural area and there is only 1 doctor anywhere near me. She is booked until Feb. 8.

Where do you live? (generally speaking)

Wyoming.

If you were in NC I might have been able to help you out. Oh well. Hang in there. In the meantime there is a great podcast called "alcoholism-recovery-radio"

Link : http://www.alcoholism-recovery-radio.com/

There are a couple on the Sinclair Method if you scroll down. I'm not exactly sure why but listening to these podcasts make me feel better and firm up my resolve to stick with TSM.

Thank you. At the moment I wish I lived in North Carolina. I am trying to stay positive and know that there is help around the corner and not punish myself too much but it is hard.

I'll check out the links.