I was just reading a bit on The Cured List by ChrisB and this gives me inspiration to keep on with TSM as I have been on TSM for just about 2 years but with 3 months without Nal+Drinking so it's more like 21 months at this time.
"So I started naltrexone the day before Thanksgiving 2012. I was a heavy drinker, a woman in her 40s, drinking 750 ml of hard liquor or 5 liters wine every two days, rain or shine. Almost always in the evening after the kids went to bed (widowed mom, good times!), but sometimes I'd start earlier in the evening.
I stuck with naltrexone, even though my drinking didn't really abate. It's like I was daring it to work. I had a little honeymoon period, but like we know, my drinking went right back up. And boy, f I still didn't have mental cravings, day after day.
And I felt like the clock was ticking - was this going to work? Forget the 3 months the book might say, tick, tick, 6 months, a year. About the year and a half point, I started feeling like I was getting a grip. I was optimistic. I sometimes went several nights without drinking, heck even a few weeks. But I mentally still wanted to drink. About 4 pm, I would start thinking, hey, should I make that run to the store? You know that one.
Honestly at times, I figured that I just was going to be one of those people that the method did not work on. But you know what? Even though I had given up on it, I still took that pill before drinking. And something weird happened just past the two year mark. I might drink, but I really didn't want to. Alcohol, especially more than a drink or so, just kind of made me feel icky. There was no pleasure in it at all. The night time cravings? Gone. No more urges to run to the store.
Hell, there's alcohol in my home and I haven't drunk it in weeks! Seriously. That has not happened in many a year. Had a party at the house recently and had a drink. Nursed it all evening long. Boom. Never wanted another one, didn't really care about that one.
I tested myself a few times. Bought alcohol and tried to drink it. Had a drink or two and blech. Done. I honestly think I'm done. Not abstinent, if I want a drink, I can have one. But I really don't NEED to drink anymore. Amazing."
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