Checking in again. Since I last posted, my drinking has been fairly well controlled for the most part. I've had two incidents over the last 6 weeks of drinking too much, both instances where I drank a bottle of wine in a night. The first one, I drank it all in the course of a couple of hours. That nalover was *bad*, very bad. The second time, just last week, I drank a bottle of wine over the course of about 6 hours. I never got really drunk, just buzzed and didn't actually expect to have a hangover. I did. It was milder but still a definite nalover.
Overall, the drinking is better. Sunday afternoon I took a naltrexone thinking I was going to have a drink at a picnic but by the time my hour wait was up, I was feeling the effects of the sun and thinking that alcohol would just make me feel more tired and overheated so I didn't drink at all.
Where am I these days with drinking? I'm not feeling the same call or craving to drink that I used to. I used to want to drink everyday, though I managed to keep it to 3 days a week most weeks. Now I only feel a real craving once or twice a week. And the craving is not as strong anymore. I can easily say no if it's not a good day to drink.
The cost of the naltrexone prevents me from drinking too casually. If naltrexone was super cheap, I might start having a glass of wine most nights with dinner, just because I do enjoy it, more so if I'm not worried about overdrinking. I'm too aware of the cost of the pill though, so I save it to have once or twice a week only.
While naltrexone has been great for decreasing my drinking, both frequency and quantity, it doesn't stop me from drinking too much on a particular evening sometimes. I have to keep working on that. I hate those nalovers. Wicked.
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