Doc wont give me the upper dose. He said all my tests look good but he will give me 6 more months.
Joe, if I am not home I really don't notice the time. I gather a lot of the time I am bored. For example it is now 546 and I am waiting for 7 to roll around. Once I start I find it hard to stop, I don't drink forever, but I drink a certain amount and stop. Does this all make sense.

I think I can identify with that. I spent most of my drinking time in front of the computer, I was a lone drinker.

Did you ever email Claudia? I sent you a PM with her email addy.

I do my most drinking when talking on the phone, I shouldn't do that because I know I sound drunk. I do take my melatonine about 830 which makes it worse. Thanks for standing by me.

"Thanks for standing by me."

It's my pleasure, Meggie! Let's keep noticing what shows up for you, I think this is pivotal.

Grab a little notebook or the like and just jot down what you're predominantly feeling while you talk and drink. Just... enough to get in the ballpark, no need for great detail. Single words would suffice.

I also wonder if a consult with Dr. Stuart Kloda would help further things. He's been using TSM, Baclofen, etc. for some time now and might be able to help you push ahead in a one-on-one or a consult with your doc.

Will do, who is that doctor.

He's an addiction doc in New York.

http://www.stuartklodamd.com/

I took my med at 600 pm, at around 7 I had that fuzzy head thing like I was going into a migraine. I haven't had one of those in years. A friend called, she said you sound strange. I told her about the fuzz and the headache. I took aspirin and turned off the light, the headache went into the cheeks.
Not a drop of drink last night, I haven't had a night without a drink since maybe one day in November when I was sick. Kinda a great feeling.

Wow! Congratulations, Meggie! Be sure to tell your doc about that, might be an important clue. I hope the migraine was just a one-off thing.

Keep us updated on the goings on!

Oh, Joe, it was and off thing, but I did feel so strange the rest of the day. I did talk to Claudia at one point. She is a wonderful person. I think I just don't want it enough.

It may be the length of time or the dose too. Check Melissa's thread here:

http://optionssavelives.freeforums.net/ ... 65/week-51

She went up to 75mg and it seems to have flipped the switch for her. I know you already tried 75mg.