Hi all. I just wanted to give an update since I have not posted in a very long time. I believe this will be my last post in this forum.

I had some personal issues in my life that led me to make bad decisions and stop taking the pill again. I have been down this road before and you can all imagine how it went.

As a result of this be my third time of slacking off taking the pill, I have decided that this method is probably not a good fit for my temperament, level of self-control, and habits.

I was always cheating the system, maybe not always, but frequently cheating the system, by drinking too soon after taking the pill, skipping the pill, or drinking many drinks back to back so as to overwhelm the effect.

I think that psychologically I cannot pair continued drinking with my recovery. As soon as the alcohol enters my body I start chasing that old feeling. As a result, I have decided to enter Alcoholics Anonymous and cease drinking entirely.

Anyone who has followed my journey here knows that I was not thrilled about the Alcoholics Anonymous method. But I have tried using the pill for about 14 months now, and I can't seem to align myself with the methodology. I think even one drink, while using Naltrexone or not, is enough to make me start misbehaving again.

I was afraid for people to know that I was an alcoholic, I was afraid to have to publicly admit that I have stopped drinking and have to turn away drinks that are offered me. But I think I'm just going to humble myself and stop drinking and take whatever consequences may come my way in terms of social fall out.

Anyone that is really my friend or really has my best interests at heart will respect my decision and love me anyway. I have to get better.

I don't mean this final Post in any way to be a discouragement to anyone that is using Naltrexone. I know it has been effective for many, and the people on this forum have been nothing but kind and supportive and encouraging. It has been a wonderful experience being a part of this community. And I thank you all for every generous word that you have written to me.

I felt I owed the group a final message so they know where I'm at. As of today I am 9 days sober.

Brittany

This forum is all about support and not judging others so if you think AA is best for you than by all means give it a try. Nothing wrong with that at all. Obviously TSM works a lot better and faster for some than others. Congratulations on your 9 days and keep up the good work and if you ever find that you need a change from AA you know where to find us!

Brittany - thank you for posting and telling us what is going on with you - I have wondered how you are doing! I think that quitting AL is not a one size fits all and we each have to find our own path - so I am hoping that AA is yours, and as reboot said - you know where to find us. I wish you all the best with AA and hope that it works for you,

Hugs, Maggie x

Brittany, what's important is finding what works for you.

You may want to check in to Acamprosate, it really helps some to become "immune" to their drinking triggers.

Brittany, I am glad that you checked in with us. I wish you nothing but the best of luck with AA. I personally know folks whose lives it has saved, who fit very well with it and who would swear it saved their lives!! There are also many many high profile intelligent and gifted celebrities whose lives were saved by AA: Elton John, Eric Clapton and my personal favorite, Eminem, among them!! So you will be in very good company. Each one of us has to do what is right for them and I know that you have struggled. I do so pray that you will find the relief you are seeking. The good news is that many doors are starting to open up for different kinds of treatment. Do whatever you have to do for your own good.

Feel free to come back and post any time. I don't think anyone here would judge you or wish anything other than what is best for you. We would love to know that you are OK and how you are doing.

xoxo and all the best, Newlife

Hi everyone! I think the Forum disappeared for a while from the internet because I couldn't find it! But I just wanted to check in really quickly. I am 3 months and 26 days sober. I miss talking to you in here but things are going well! Blessings and hugs!

GO YOU Brittany! I am so pleased that something is working for you .... how are you feeling? Glad that you stopped by and let us know what was going on with you ....

Hugs, Maggie x

Maggie,

I'm feeling pretty good. Total sobriety is not bad. It's actually pretty tolerable so far. Every now and then I get a bad craving, and if I just wait it out so it will pass. So I am just taking it day by day. Being thoughtful and circumspect about my choices and not taking anything lightly.

Congratulations, Brittany! How long has it been since you've had going on 4 AF months?

Well done, keep it going!

Yesterday was 4 months AF!!!!!!
I just got a promotion at work! Literally yesterday I got promoted to management after a month-long interview process. I would never have even been able to have the energy or Focus to interview for it if I were not alcohol-free!