Hi Samsara - I think you and I are going through the same emotions. I feel the same way here - scary to go through this with drugs from the internet, little or no doctor help...I'm not so worried about it not working as I am that the medication will do something harmful to me because it's not from a prescription. But to add to SR's point...I have not heard any horror stories about River Pharmacy.
Last night (day 2) I had really bad nausea and felt disoriented after taking the pill - 25mg. I ate a bunch of saltine crackers, had some tea and got up and moved around started talking etc. (just pushed through it) and found it went away in an hour. Also had to force myself to drink 8 oz of wine, and that was totally enough. Went to bed and fell right asleep but I keep waking up around 4:00 and then every hour after. I take Tryptophan to help me sleep and at one point woke up with a pain in my chest thinking it was a heart attack : ). So, also pushing through the scaredy cat in me these first few days and then I will be good to go. It's just new stuff, so I think it's normal to worry a bit at first.
This morning feel great so far. Nice to not have a hangover again. For those who have not started yet, the only difference I notice drinking on Nal (other than not having any cravings) is I used to get a little burn in my stomach that would slowly spread out to my limbs while drinking the first glass. I didn't notice that the last few nights, but other than that, to me it still feels like drinking wine (tastes the same) but just doesn't send my body into a little kid happy dance with each sip. And the beauty is, I don't miss the happy dance. At all. And so far, no signs of this med increasing depression or anxiety (other than the fear described above).
Love this so far. And I know from reading the posts from the 'old-timers' that it may go back to normal next week. But I'm hoping this is how I will feel at the end of 4 months. So hopeful.
