Hello and thanks !
Night 2!!
So took tablet at work at 4pm, left work at 6 and went for dinner, had one cocktail.
My partner who I should add drinks as much as me and is in the same situation asked what I wanted to drink from the shop to take home. So I said anything not bothered.
And I wasn't !! Could have happily had nothing.
Anyway it seems he misheard me and thought I said I didn't want to drink so he came out of the shop with nothing. I didn't confront him about this whereas normally I would be panicking and saying what are we gonna get? How many bottles do we need to get that buzz? Drunk?
Get home, he's sulking. I said I'm surprised you didn't buy anything so he said I thought you didn't want to drink. So I said I'm not bothered about it.
He has left now to go to the shop as he really wants a drink!! Me I'm not bothered about it!!!
Such a weird weird feeling.
It's almost like I can compare the way this tablet makes me feel against my partner who is like my drinking double!!
It's very odd. This feeling where it's not taking over my whole brain thinking what can I drink!
I will have one when he gets back but drink it slowly and really think about how much I want it or don't as the case may be.
I hope this carries on

I feel way more in control already!
Tomorrow I'm at a casino on a cocktail making experience lol a belated birthday gift. So I shall take pill number 3 and see.
Quite amazed, when I return to the doctors I will be begging for a prescription.