TTC,
time_to_change wrote:
I wanted to post today because I'm having a difficult time believing in the process. I know that this is normal!! As I look at my #'s I can see that my drinking has decreased...but it doesn't FEEL like it has. I guess this is the part I'm having the most problems with.
I could have written this (and most likely did somewhere here), for I thought I wasn't seeing any progress and I was almost drinking back up to pre TSM levels. To top it off my husband was questioning this method as well and he never said a thing about my drinking before, so I was full of doubt.
The good news is things changed, but it was a slow and gradual progression. I would notice little things like I didn't have that anxiety waiting for that hour to lapse, my head would be clearer because it wasn't foggy from the night before, or it would be bedtime and I realized I didn't finish my glass. I thought of those as little triumphs, but they are actually big ones, for that is your brain letting go.
So, just don't think about your intake, think about the little things that have changed, and how your cravings been.
Your brain is just getting started in this process, so like a child is testing you and filling you full of doubt. Don't let it! Remember that a minimum of people see results by 3 months, most see results 4-6 months, so you have a while before things start really kicking in.
Also, I would play mind games with myself to help get out the habit. I would delay in taking my pill, I would wait longer than an hour etc, for I wasn't able to have an AF day until longer down the road, so I would do anything to break up my ritual of nightly drinking.
And you are doing remarkable well, for your intake is down a lot and you are able to have AF days...amazing!
You are not alone in feeling this way, and I think it is pretty normal. Hang in there and remember with time and compliance things will change.
Jaba