Deena wrote:
Badger, it has always amazed me that I can do a cleanse without alcohol and it is not a big issue. Perhaps the fact that there is an end date and I am not trying to give it up forever makes the difference? You are absolutely right that if I can do it for 21 days, the techniques that I use to do that should make it easier to do a few alcohol free days during the week. I don't seem to crave alcohol at all during a cleanse, though. It is crazy.
The good thing about doing a cleanse is that much of the mindfulness about eating carries on after the cleanse. I will spend more time on meal planning and preparation after the cleanse. The same does not seem to hold true when it comes to drinking, however. For some reason after a cleanse I tend to binge on alcohol and my consumption goes up. I was stymied by that, always disappointed that I couldn't moderate my drinking and carry on better drinking habits. I didn't realize until I went back through several years worth of journals, how significant the increase in my alcohol intake was after each 21 day or longer cleanse. Until I read The Cure book, I did not know about ADE but it certainly seems to apply to my past experience.
My greatest goal is to not have that craving any more. UKB says that it took her 8 months to get to that point. I can wait 8 months. I have been inching slowly forward and I just don't want to do anything to put me back to square one.
Thanks for all your input. You have given me a lot to think about.
I've always done the same thing. Typically I'd take January off after the holidaze. I'd have the whole litany of excuse, need to lose weight, need to cleanse, and everything else except the truth which was I need to slow down my drinking so I don't die from cirrhosis or heart failure.
I would always have a target date and then depending how I was feeling push it back as far as possible. I'd go through a process every single time. The first day was the worst. That's when you have to chemically detox and it would cause anxiety, irregular heart beats, anger, depression and almost any form of psychological torture to get me to submit to my medicine. In a few days time I'd start to feel just a bit better. Then I would have these major sleep sessions. I'd sleep incredibly well and have really wacked out and vivid dreams. That would last for about a week or two then everything would start to get normal and I'd begin questioning why I ever did just binge for the last three months topping off at a good 15 drinks per night, blacking out, breaking promises and so on.
I'd start to feel righteous! Almost like a soldier of temperance. A moral superior who would look down on the insidious drunks that were my friends.
I'd ride that high for a week or two more and then I'd start thinking that I'm better now. I'm a new man. I've changed my ways and after all I work hard I deserve a drink!
Then I'd only drink on the weekends. Then I'd start my weekends on Thursday. Then I'd give up.