At least you can drink in front of your husband. My husband grew up in an alcoholic family and will not allow me to drink in front of him. He does know that I am working with my doctor and he does know I am drinking we just aren't talking about it. So I will have to continue to sneak even though we both know I am doing it.
AF day, I haven't had one since August of 2011. I have had days of one drink but the sleeping is horrid on those days. My brain is used to sleeping on the drink. I feel yucky today because I drank too much. A friend was diagnosed with ALS. We need to respect this beautiful body we have been given. What do I do, but drink too much.

Meggie,

I am so sorry about your friend, for that can be a horrid disease. I am sorry that you feel yucky today, and I hope things get easier for you.

Jaba

I can't wait until I'm there Deena... The fact that YOU are there is hugely encouraging for me!!!

Hang in there Meggie.... so sorry about your friend's diagnosis. Makes me want to double down my effort to make sure that al doesn't take any more of a toll on my body than it already has...

As for sneaking I was the king of sneak. My wife had indeed caught me on several occasions but I was such a clever lair I almost always wiggled my way out of it. But they do know and they do catch on. But I was good... Very good. And I don't mean a couple glasses of wine I mean bottles of it and vodka and beer and you name it. I specifically bought certain kinds of cloths and jackets that I knew would be easy to hide booze in. I hid bottles in the dark that I could find completely blinded when no one else could. I had a huge tolerance too. I could make it look like I only drank 4 or 5 beers in one night when lo and behold I married that with shots of vodka, wine, bourbon, you name it. I'd be totally drunk and get away with it. I've even fooled police officers.

After my very first experience with TSM that instantly went away. It's amazing really. I simply have no need at all what so ever to hide anymore because I only drink 3 or 4 drinks at the most per night, nothing I am ashamed of. I don't need to chase the rush so I don't hide. That was the only reason I hid drinks was to chase the rush and hide the problem from others.

But anyway this isn't about me it's about you minne and I think you are on the right path. Keep up the good work. Eventually you will not feel the need to sneak and you may even want to share your experience with your husband. My wife knows I am doing TSM. Like your husband (I am guessing he's not an alcoholic) she doesn't understand. I can't blame her for not understanding at all. I'm convinced that only alcoholics can understand alcoholism. When I was struggling to be sober in the past she'd often times pour wine and ask me if I want, 'Just one sip' because it's the good stuff. It's a nice gesture really. They don't understand. They just want to share. And her family was the same way. So many Christmas's I can remember being offered wine and denying it so I wouldn't end up binge drinking and I could tell that they sort of took offense to it if you know what I mean. They want to share something they enjoy a lot and you don't want it! Like you are shunning them or something. They just don't understand. So that's why I would sneak. Sure I'll have your sip of wine. But in the back ground I've got a bottle of Vodka so I don't get sick.

My wife still has no idea how much I really did drink and I don't plan on telling her either. Frankly she would be shocked. Maybe that's still a bit of sneaking going on but I'm ok with that. Most people would be shocked to know that an average night was 12 beers and 5 shots of vodka with a little wine.

wow, Ocean, you are doing very well. How long did you drink and how long have you been on Nal.

Minnie - Great job on the AF - there are many more in your future. Even though you worry, I can tell that you are starting to see that you are a lot like others who have come before you on this forum. And you are following the same pattern as the rest of us. It wont be long till those AF days are common and without white knuckling!

Where is everyone. How is everyone doing. I am thinking this drug is not working. I have started at 3/4 tablet I have to go up to a full and hope I do better. Last night I was bad again. I do half the week great and then do the other half terrible.

Meggie although your join date is January, you have not actually been on the Nal for long have you ? Why are you only taking 3/4 of a tab ? Most of us take the 50 mg - that is what the studies were done with. Try taking the 50, instead of less and see how it goes. Plus it is not a quick easy fix - I have been on Nal since end of January and am still not there - but I do know that it will work and so I just have to have faith and patience ! Are you tracking your units ? You might want to start posting them - or if not posting, at least tracking - it really does make a difference !

Hugs, Maggie x

I did the whole pill last night and waited about an hour and half. I did drink little. However, the night before I drank too much and felt yucky yesterday. I do keep track of my drinking by marking my bottles and checking how much I drink. I think I need to write it in my diary to see if there is a pattern. I need to also write down emotions and see what it tells me.
I joined when you were talking about the program and I am always looking for a way out of this disease. I also was trying to get meds for over a half of a year. I finally found someone who would give it to me the first of August. I was having a procedure so I waited until about August 7 to try. I also have to have faith in this. The whole concept makes sense and my doctor believes in the idea.
Hope all are well and marching on.