Goatmaster wrote:
I am an artist and a designer. I spent 24 hours last week creating a piece of art for a juried show that I was accepted into. I would have never been able to do that prior to TSM.
This interests me. How did it go with your creativity? There are a lot of links out there to very creative people and excessive alcohol consumption.
I found this to be the one area of sobriety that I regretted. I can still find my creativity, but never when I want now. It seemed that a little alcohol summoned it in the pre-TSM days. Now I have no control. It just comes when it wants, -but otherwise I cannot summon it. Works well enough, -I just move on to something else until it does. But a little frustrating.
I know exactly what you mean. I used to smoke weed too. The weed would make me hyper creative but also paranoid and introverted and very shy. The alcohol would release that shyness and allow the creativity to come through unfettered. It would have to be jsut the right combo though and would only last a little while. Then of course I'd just end up drunk. It was magical no doubt about it but as it gave much to me it took much more away and eventually the trade off was not even close to worth it. OF course by that point I was deep into the alcoholism which took over everything. I had a moment of clarity last night actually. I didn't drink at all last night and while playing the guitar I felt like I was channeling the creativity. I could hear each individual note on each string clearly and felt like a chess player who knew his next 5 moves. So it's still there but like you say it's not as easy to pull out of the wood work.
Interesting how it works like that.