That is wonderful!! It will be here before you can blink!! Congrats. Newlife

Congratulations, GuyJeb! It sounds like you are doing really well. If you get bored while your wife and son are away and start to feel your resolve slip, come here and let us help slap that glass out of your hand. All the best!

Yeah I would eat junk when drinking, it was sort of my time off. The drinking, tiredness, coffee, reflux mix sounds nasty, and also a cycle which feeds itself.

I only ever needed antacids after drinking sessions and/or binge eating. There's a bit of a clue there.

Another revelation has been cutting caffeine out - I thought it was helping me, well cutting it right down in the last few weeks I've found that once I got over the first few days I'm no more tired than I was when using it to 'keep going'. I do miss the taste, even good quality decaff (ground) isn't quite the same however I keep telling myself it is just another addiction.

So something to think about, but I'm sure you are well aware and also to do everything at once is too much.

Yes the chucking away thing, I used to pour wine away at the end of every binge.........but until TSM I couldn't keep it away.

I think it takes realisation that losing $10 or even $100 is nothing compared to having your health, and life back. Good job so far, keep it up!

Congratulations Guy - and Feb 1st is the BEST date to have a birthday! Good for you in going down to your goal for the week .....

Hugs, Maggie x

Guy I know what you mean about the work trips. I'm going to a conference next week and typically the first thing I'd do is find out where the liqueur store is and buy a bottle of bourbon and a case of beer and stock the room fridge. I'll probably get some beer as I plan on packing my Naltrexone but I'll pass on the whiskey. I know what you mean by having to force the drink too. Funny isn't it. Last night hanging out with friends I was wanting to go home but still had half a beer. I drank it in a bit of a hurry because I too don't like wasting. It was only my second beer, something unheard of just 3 months ago.

GuyJeb,

I am glad things are turning around for you, and I know that feeling of realizing that you didn't drink, for it is almost as if a light bulb has been turned on (yay you)!

I am happy to hear about Titus and what an exciting time in you life. Take lots of pic and have special times with the little ones, for they grow so fast and when they are teens they want nothing to do with you.

I heard about the California fires...not good. I am glad that all your co-workers made is out alive, but coming back to no home is something I just could not fathom. My heart and prayers are going out to all of you.

I do not think you are going to have any issues when your wife is away, for you are doing really good. Just keep busy and keep posting!

Jaba

I Have Been Cured of Alcoholism!!!

Well guys. Much has happened...

I have been cured of Alcoholism! I'm going to have to write a more detailed version of this in the Cured section, but basically heres the short of it.

Went to 2 Work events for 2 weeks, on the 2nd event was training up in Seattle. Tried to just avoid alcohol but discovered there is a Website that delivers Booze to your door for a small fee. I used it twice, even after pouring out the Rum the first time. Lol...

While in Seattle, I found sooo much information about Marijuana(MJ) since its legal there. I didn't try it while i was there, but it got me thinking. I began resarching MJ heavily during training (lol Couldn't pay attention to powershell class) and learned why my father smokes MJ for Cancer treatment. I then found 4 other people online who used MJ to get off alcohol. So from this point i scheduled a Medical Evaluation back home the next day I'm there. I talk to the guy and he tells me I'm the 4th parent to walk into his office trying to get off of alcohol. We then discuss much and I learn the process.

Since then, I have tried Alcohol with MJ twice.. and Let me tell you.. That is no Bueno. I made the commitment that If i have MJ, then no alcohol. After 2 weeks now.. I have ZERO Hard liqour in the house.. something that used to give me panic attacks. I have a beer and a bottle of wine somewhere. but thats it. My cravings for Alcohol have 98% disappeared and it has been amazing.


I have not yet told my SO yet. I have decided to tell her in person when she returns 1 week from today. I know she will be ecstatic that Alcohol is no longer ruling my life. But I wonder how she will respond to me smoking MJ. I dont smoke a lot. Just a little bit around 9 pm before bed.

It has been nice because I no longer Think to myself: "Oh ****, it's 5:30. I gotta take the Pill now so I can drink at 6:30!" Instead It's more like "Huh.. I'm home.. with nothing to do.. maybe I should go to the gym? do Laundry?.. Well I can eat dinner, watch more Walking dead and then have my 'Break'(MJ) around 9." It has been great to not have to worry anymore about this.

So anyways, just wanted to update everyone on this. I still need to update my findings on Taking Nordict, Naltima, and rivia on the other post, but the jist of that is - They all feel the same now except for Nordict, it gives me minor headaches before I begin drinking.


Also, one other thing to mention... Through therapy and having a Month off from family.. I have rediscovered all the reasons why I was drinking. They have all come back, and now I get to actually deal with them instead of Drowning out the noise with Alcohol as a distraction.

I have learned a lot about myself... Too much maybe... I learned that I may have gotten married for the wrong reasons, that I still have feelings for someone from the past.. and that I am now considering non-monogamy/poly lifestyle.. I love my wife and son so much.. I just dont know what the future looks like now.. But, I am unwilling to suppress myself like I did for the last 6 years...


Yeah.. lots to think about. Its amazing that all this comes back once Alcohol is out of the picture. What I really wish I could do is meet a married couple who was Monogamous and became non-monogamous or poly. I could really use the mentor. Oy



Anyways, thank you all for Following me and helping me get through this!
Talk to you all soon

-Guy Jeb

That's great news Guy I'm very happy for you. I keep saying that I'll never put myself on the cured list but then I keep getting the same kind of happenings that you talk about too. I no longer care about how much alcohol I have in the house, when I pass my usual stores on the way home I don't even think about stocking up, when I get home the first thing I don't do is grab a beer, and in fact I don't even keep my Naltrexone with me everywhere I go because if I end up out with friends who want to go to a bar I'll just get coffee, no big deal at all what so ever.

One question for you though. When you say, "Since then, I have tried Alcohol with MJ twice." did you take your Naltrexone one hour prior to that? I'm curious to know what smoking MJ on Naltrexone is like.

As for the rest of it good luck! If you would ask me I'd say that all guys are poly especially when they are in their early 20's

Wow, GuyJeb IS THAT ALL?

Of course I am THRILLED for you that you have beaten your alcoholism. I think I understand you to say, though, that you did it with MJ and not with Nal or TSM? Is that correct? Do you still drink and, when you do, do you still take the nal?

Regarding the non-monogamy, thing, first let me say that I really don't judge. Also, I can completely understand what might lead someone to want to try that option, there is certainly a case to be made for it. And, I have never tried it so I do not know whether it would work for me. I have given it some thought throughout my life, however (I am 54 and have been married most of my adult life - not to the same guy, though), and it always struck me as something that sounds good in theory but would be very difficult to make work in practice, human beings being what they are. And, I worry that you might be risking what you already have in giving it a try. Only you and your wife can judge that.

Also, though, I think your wife is currently pregnant and due in February? You may want to think twice before springing this on a woman so far along in a pregnancy. Most of us by that stage feel pretty vulnerable and not very attractive.

I wish you the best!! Hugs from Newlife

Ocean -



It just felt dizzy, slow, unable to do much of anything. Not a good combo. From what I understand, MJ is not Opid receptor sensative, so not much going on there, but yes I did take the Nal beforehand. I think what it comes down to for me, is that I'm so new to MJ, that I need to really learn my limits. The first night I took WAY too much and even felt it at work the next day. The following day I took Such a small amount with no Alcohol and I felt amazing the day after.

newlife -

Yes I still take Nal every time I plan to drink. I would say that TSM got me 85% of the way there, and MJ is the habit i have chosen to replace Alcoholism. It will take some time for me to learn how to not choose that habbit every time, slowly over time.

As for non-monogamy, you are completely right. I cannot enter into this discussion with her until at least 5 or 6 months from now. But there is much for us to discuss. And these are the choices I will have to make.. It sucks that life changes... that our expectations, desires, and joys change over time. But no matter what happens, I do love her, and she is the mother of our kids. This means I will have a relationship with her until death. I better continue to make it a great one

-Jeb