Have a look at this post again, I think this is very important.

Also FRIDAY so reminds me of putting it off.

Maggie - I don't really have any words of wisdom to share, just support. I think you and I are in a similar place. We were seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but it is precarious. I am just trying to hold onto how GOOD it feels when I am in control and do not overdo things. I think you can't beat yourself up too much. Do the best you can. The most important thing is to just always take the nal. I am rooting for you!! xoxo from Newlife

Trust you to make me laugh !!! Thanks Steve - I feel okay this morning and am going to have an AF day today!!

Hugs, Maggie x

Yes - I re-read it and saw the bit you had highlighted - as I said to Steve I am going to have an AF day today though - I just need to get a grip! I will try and be AF for the rest of the week I think ..... thanks UKB,

Hugs, Maggie x

Thanks newlife - and yes, your wording was very good - we are both seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but it is precarious ! Sometimes it IS a train coming and sometimes it is just daylight ! Ups and downs - but as you said, we WILL get there !

hugs, Maggie x

Hang in their Maggie, I think your numbers are still looking good. It's a bumpy road as others have mentioned.

I just want to throw this out there... But first I will say it's important for everyone to do what works for them. We are all different and very complex creatures to say the least. I just want to say that from my understanding of the book it's probably best to not try and force anything. So in other words just thinking and planning for alcohol free days is working against TSM. Forcing an alcohol free day with Antibuse goes against TSM. Alcohol free days are supposed to just occur naturally and when they do it's a true sign that extinction is working. If you plan to have days off then you are using the old out dated abstinence model and very well may be feeding the alcohol deprivation system and come back to drinking even stronger.

Having said that, alcohol free days are always a good thing. That's just my understanding of the physiological process of TSM. There is of course a psychological process as well that includes our habits and so on but my understanding of TSM is more on a physiological level. That we have to physically change the brain just like rewiring an old house with new wires and updated circuits and the only way to do that with TSM is to drink while on Naltrexone.

I hope I don't sound like I am trying to lecture, I'm just throwing that out there more so for discussion.

No worries Ocean - I used to have to take the Ab simply to have any AF days - but can now manage to have them without taking it - which is a GIANT step for me. Even though I ended up taking only 1/16 of a tablet - LOL - it was enough that I knew I would not drink. However nowadays I do not take anything - I just AM AF !! I know initially when I posted about taking the AB there were some posters who disagreed with me but then there were those who said ANY way to get an AF day was good - but I went with what was right for me. It is a long time since I took any AB and for that I am extremely grateful to Nal ! Thanks for the thought though - it is always appreciated to hear others point of view,

Hugs, Maggie x

SO glad you always take me that way (as intended). I know I pees people off sometimes but I just think I'm being hysterically funny.

Steve - I would never take you the wrong way - and you do always make me laugh!!!!

Hugs, Maggie x

Oh - and forget the AF day today ......bummer ! Never mind - there is always the next day right ?

Hugs, Maggie x