Ok so I am not all the way into my first week. But I wanted to report so far what I have experienced. My intentions on TSM are to slow down, stop the pattern, and get well mentally and physically.
I have every intention of having more N/A days then drinking days, and care very much about
getting in shape and taking care of my body.
I want to come at this from every angle. So as I suspected, day three of No alcohol got me. The cravings kicked in bad, almost like a panic
attack. Dinner was being served, great seafood spread. Wine was being chilled and I just knew
this was my time to take the 50 m.g. of Nal. Was a little scared but I have a good support system
so down the hatch.
At first I felt not much. Just kind of spaced out. Then starting noticing that dinner was not looking
appetizing at all. Seemed to have an enhanced sense of smell. So here is this gorgeous pricey
seafood spread and me feeling like I am going to throw up.
So I wait an hour, pour my glass of wine and take about an hour to drink it.
Side effects- ConsNausea, Headache, Sleepless and anxiety- (I had to take an Ativan to calm down that night).
Day after- Headache, still felt spaced out, not great appetite (which is small price to pay, I am happy
to sacrifice one day of that). Drinking has caused me to gain weight and stopped me from
taking it off.
Side effects - ProsDid not want that second glass of wine, really didn't seem necessary to me. Not only
was it too sweet, but I also had access to other wine or beer but did not partake.
It's now second day after and I still feeling like I could just have a beer and
that would fine.
Hope, this is the best part. I feel hopeful and like I am on the right path to
changing habits and having a happier life.
It is too soon to say more, but for now I am happy to know that I have
pills in my purse and I can plan for drinking.
Will be posting weekly updates. Wishing everyone the best.
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