steven wrote:
:) Hi, UKB
Did you find it to be easy to quite with TSM?
To what do you most attribute your awesome success? Was it mostly the NAL or mostly you.
Did you continue to drink heavily on NAL?
Why do YOU think a lot of the inmates here still drink heavily for months?
Do you not agree that NAL could be a brilliant tool to head off addiction as well as to recover from addiction?
You and Guapo seem to have been more successful at controlling massive AL addiction than most on this site. Any thoughts on why?
Steve
Hi Steven
Firstly I measure units in UK units which are double that of the US units system.
My drinking per session was halved from my first session with nal.
Because it was suddenly much so much safer to drink I stopped 'holding out' and drank every evening. Over time my units reduced further and I decided to break the 5-7 day habit by using tools I had used in previous attempts at abstenance.
I wanted to break the hold alcohol had over me and I was prepared to do anything, I was highly motivated to change and already had experience of attending events without drinking - it was too dangerous for me to drink at social events because I'd end up unconscious, or asleep, or doing something dangerous. I had also seen through alcohol a long time before TSM, I knew it was a con and I knew it wasn't essential in anyone's life.
So I avoided/limited drinking events either by refusing invites, or by going sober and leaving early.
There were spikes but I recognised them and they spurred me on to work harder. Over time I changed my friends, changed my lifestyle. Pre-TSM I had also cut off some alcoholic/heavy drinker/drug using friends. That was very, very difficult and I was harassed. I would hide from them, and also changed my phone number. It took 6 months to get them away from me, but that laid me in good stead for TSM.
Like Guapo I firmly believe life changes have to happen.
I have heard of LDN but I am not interested in taking the tablet everyday, and I am not interested in risking reversal by drinking without 50mg Nal.
I quit fairly easily, but that doesn't mean it hasn't been easy. It was however a decision I made after a couple of years of moderating/barely drinking through lifestyle choices. I simply was not enjoying alcohol, even one glass made me feel self-conscious. I was also not prepared to risk the process reversing. So I quit.
I don't actually crave alcohol but I get annoyed that I am 'on' 24/7/365.
I don't smoke, I don't use any mind altering drug apart from caffeine which I do keep under control (caffeine is something I enjoy, funnily enough I didn't enjoy or become addiction to cocaine - so figure that one out!).
I deal with life in the raw, every day with no let up. I do go out and socialise, dance etc but it's not central to my life, instead it's something I enjoy every now and then. I am also not afraid nor ashamed that I no longer drink - it was serious and I decided to save my life. Ten years ago I was told by a medical consultant that because of the level of my drinking I would not make it to this year.
Post-TSM an old eating disorder which I had pre-alcoholism (although back then I did have problems most times I drank), has resurfaced and in pretty much the same way/same behaviours as with alcohol but I am working on that.
I've also done a lot of self-reflection which is part of psychotherapy training I'm completing.
Has this been easy?Hell no.
TSM is a tool, it gives you a break from the physical addiction, the remainder I am convinced has to come from within.
I am a shy, nervous, insecure person but I was brought up to take responsibility and if I have to do something I will find the courage to do so. I decided to live.
Fast responders intrigue me however, I have decided that they are simply ready to stop and capable of doing so. The logic works for them right from the off.