Week 60, 20 units, 2 af. I went out 6 nights but only drank 5 with 5, 4, 4, 5 and 2 beer nights. I didn't make last weeks goal, I didn't even come close. I was too busy having fun, locked into my old pattern of behavior while enjoying myself without the negative side effects of drinking I used to experience. I had a gf tell me I was surrounded by a harem and she was right. Why did I wait so long to engage and pursue women? I know the answer and it was alcohol and it's negative effect upon me prior to TSM. I met someone I care for and it's added a lot of fun in my life. It has kind of made me whole and I like it. In looking back, I haven't blacked out, got drunk or done anything I wasn't sober enough to learn from in ages. I have been posting longer then most and it has left a nice journal for me to reflect upon. My path is a lot different then most in that I don't care to be abstinent. TSM saved me, it killed that uncontrollable drinking pattern that favored alcohol over relationships. It has allowed me to enjoy a party situation and not get carried away. At this moment, I am happy with my progress and what I am doing. Sure, it can always be better, but I will leave that for the future. It has been mentioned several times on this board concern over the negative side effects of the nal. I mentioned several months ago effects I consider to be positive from the nal. That the nal adds a state of mindfulness in lieu of the constant distractions of our feeling nature. My life is so much more together because of this mindfulness, it is crazy. Why did I wait so long? In signing out, a lot of good results are being posted. Wtg guys. To the others, keep at it, it will kick in and give you a different point of reference that you can make choices from. Nal- on. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks: 1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af 2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af 3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af...................53-23, 3 af 4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af...................54-25, 3 af 5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af...................55-29. 2 af 6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af...................56-28,2 af 7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af...................57-30, 1 af 8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af...................58-23, 2 af 9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af...................59- 23, 2 af 10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af...................60-20, 2 af
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