Snapdragon wrote:
Well everyone - haven't posted for a while, but reading Cheeto's progress compelled me to give an update. Like her I am making no progress at all. I feel that I should make excuses - but that's what addiction does and I want to be totally honest.
I have now been taking Selincro almost every day for 6 months. I have said that I feel less of the physical 'craving' I don't obsess about drinking all day long like I used to, however, having an AF day is near impossible. For some reason I just can't do it. I have had days when I'm adamant I won't drink. I will get to 7pm and then think - Oh I'm going to take a Selincro and have just a glass of wine. But I simply can't have one glass of wine. I still feel compelled to drink the whole bottle (and sometimes more).
Selincro is making me feel 'blaahhh' most of the time. I don't feel so much joy in life anymore. I feel tired and depressed and could quite happily stay in bed all day. Six months!
I must admit, I am beginning to wonder if this will ever work for me. I can't image at this point in time being able to go an evening without drinking wine. On the very odd occasion that I have managed an AF day, all I can think about is the following day when I can have wine.
I'm not giving up yet - but I am seriously praying for a miracle here!
Just read the whole of your thread, and all I can say is i feel the same as you. This daily habit, I just cannot snap out of! I'm sick of this, but only been on NAL since January. I am hanging on to what I've read here, in that it could be 6-12 months.....I'm just impatient, but maybe that's a trait of a drinker, who knows?
I will plod on hoping for a miracle........I know I need to enforce an AF day. Easier said than done when you live alone, and the vino is your company!! Feeble excuse, I know.....