Week 54-25 units, 3 af. Went out 5 nights but only drank 4 with 5, 6, 6 and 8 beer nights. Had a blast with friends dancing and listening to live music. Nothing new there, but what happened this week has me second thinking how nice this lifestyle really is. I had some major drama that I needs to worked out now. Not just 1 night but 2 nights I had something happen to me that I really don't want to be involved in. I know alcohol is involved and of course women are at the focal point. I party at a well known dive bar where everyone knows each other. Strong drinks are poured and good times are the norm. I guess what I'm seeing now in myself and friends is the destructive force of alcohol. You guys can imagine the games being played? We're all drinkers, right? It's like going back to the games played at a grammar school recess lot. Feelings are exposed and there to be slaughtered, ouch. I'm lucky the nal keeps my mindfulness up. But it's still not enough to keep me out of the allure of a good looking women. Lol, maybe I'm learning what everyone should of learned in their early twenties . I just stagnated my personal growth due to alcohol and am not prepared. You can't have a relationship with a person who has that alcohol mind, me included. They/we just don't get it. My fault for putting me there and up to me to get out of this mess. Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it like I did. I'm at a point that it's getting harder to go out and this just re-affirms that this road leads to no where. As fun as it is, I need to change my viewpoint of it and adapt to a slightly different version of it. Nal has done it's job, I'm not addicted like before. My lifestyle is the same thou and this is my problem. I need to implement new hobbies, change, grow up, dang. Lol, sad but it's the truth. So be it. Going to sign out for the week. Welcome to all you new guys and a big applause to you guys who show up week after week and follow the GR. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks: 1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af 2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af 3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af...................52-23, 3 af 4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af...................53-25, 3 af 5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af 6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af 7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af 8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af 9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af 10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af
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