retread wrote:
You are all terrific! I think the tendency to beat myself up over any little failure, real or imagined, contributed to the way I drank. Of course I drank over any little success too! "When it's rainy, when it's sunny, when I'm happy, when I'm sad". That's when I drank. I heard that phrase somewhere, maybe at one of those awful (for me anyway) AA meetings. This part of the forum is really great for me. Totally anonymous (which AA is NOT), and great people who are sharing the journey. Special thanks to UKB, who although cured a long time ago, hangs around to support the rest of us and spur us on. I never had such support and such positive people in AA. Again, you are all terrific and thanks to all of you. Hey Cheeto, I know you tried RR like I did. Did you go the AA route too?
Yes that feeling of good, bad, success, failure, any day ending in 'y' ha ha.
Coming here helps me, and I am so glad this forum is so active at the moment, so I'll stay here for a bit.