Week 53-23 units, 3 af. Went out 5 nights but only drank 4 with 5, 6 , 5 and 7 beer nights. I notice I'm changing and my thought processes are a little different. I had a few nights this week where I really didn't want to go out. I actually had to force myself to leave the comfort of my house. Where did that thought process come from? Is the nightlife with all the social interactions, dancing getting old? Or is it I'm getting picky and only want to go out when there is really good band and I know it will be an exceptional good time?. I don't know, but maybe this is how my brain is re-wiring itself after 1 year of TSM. Maybe I'm learning better balance and preparing to make better decisions. Amazing to say the least. That even after 1 year the nal continues to persuade me into contemplating better decisions around my alcohol use. I have no doubt that if I continue with TSM I will soon be in the teens with my consumption. All I have to do is drink 1 less night a week. I can replace it with any activity I want and enjoy and reap the benefit of how it feels to be af. Then I see myself moving under 10 and in safe limits. With no effort to cut down, while giving myself free reins to continue doing what I've always done and liked. I will one day be free of a 4 decade old problem. In signing out for the week, I'm happy with my progress and absolutely love how I feel when af. I want to wish all of the new participants the best of luck. I believe TSM should be your first choice of offense for our problem and congratulate you on being here. Super respect for all the ones well under their way for all their sharing and help on getting the word out. We're leaving a good trail of information for all future participants to show them there is a way out of alcoholism. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af....................52-23, 3 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af

Great update, plantpro, thank you!!! Yours is one of many success stories that inspire me. Keep going!! Hugs from Newlife

Hi Plantpro - thanks for the post and the update - you seem to be in a good space I think - your attitude has changed towards the AL - and yes, maybe the going out is getting old - the Nal is changing you ! Great that one of those nights out was AF too - I am old enough that I do not go out any more - LOL hate the thought of it to be honest! I enjoy my AL at home - although in a way it would be good if I did go out as then I could just not drink at home - right ?

Anyway - good for you - pleased to read about your ongoing success ....

hugs, Maggie x

Plantpro I am also very happy for your ongoing success with TSM and coming back to post of your journey. It's people like you that make this Forum so invaluable to support the Newbies and people that are behind you. I know I would be much more frustrated, angry and feeling hopeless without the aid of reading past posts of people that are like me that take more time for TSM to kick in.
Once again Thank You...
Nal On!

Week 54-25 units, 3 af. Went out 5 nights but only drank 4 with 5, 6, 6 and 8 beer nights. Had a blast with friends dancing and listening to live music. Nothing new there, but what happened this week has me second thinking how nice this lifestyle really is. I had some major drama that I needs to worked out now. Not just 1 night but 2 nights I had something happen to me that I really don't want to be involved in. I know alcohol is involved and of course women are at the focal point. I party at a well known dive bar where everyone knows each other. Strong drinks are poured and good times are the norm. I guess what I'm seeing now in myself and friends is the destructive force of alcohol. You guys can imagine the games being played? We're all drinkers, right? It's like going back to the games played at a grammar school recess lot. Feelings are exposed and there to be slaughtered, ouch. I'm lucky the nal keeps my mindfulness up. But it's still not enough to keep me out of the allure of a good looking women. Lol, maybe I'm learning what everyone should of learned in their early twenties . I just stagnated my personal growth due to alcohol and am not prepared. You can't have a relationship with a person who has that alcohol mind, me included. They/we just don't get it. My fault for putting me there and up to me to get out of this mess. Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it like I did. I'm at a point that it's getting harder to go out and this just re-affirms that this road leads to no where. As fun as it is, I need to change my viewpoint of it and adapt to a slightly different version of it. Nal has done it's job, I'm not addicted like before. My lifestyle is the same thou and this is my problem. I need to implement new hobbies, change, grow up, dang. Lol, sad but it's the truth. So be it. Going to sign out for the week. Welcome to all you new guys and a big applause to you guys who show up week after week and follow the GR. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af...................52-23, 3 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af...................53-25, 3 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af

Thanks for the update, plantpro, I can see you are going through and thinking about a lot of things. You will figure out what is best for you. Nal on!! Newlife

hmmmm......I can relate somewhat. sounds like Nal is helping you see through the mess a little, though. your posts have helped me. so Nel the f on!

If there's serious risk involved maybe some time away from bars is in order?

Hell I don't know, my hair (what I have left) and beard are turning white and I haven't set foot in a bar in nearly 20 years. Sheesh these days I'm into hot yoga with the house-marm crowd...........gettin' old I suppose.

I like the bar scene too. I love the music, the dancing, the buzz. But getting there & back is no fun. I have pretty much resigned myself to drinking at home if I don't have a DD. That is where it all went wrong for me. Learning to drink at home does something to the personality I think, even more so if you come to enjoy drinking alone.

I also understand the hobby thing, I can't find much that interests me these days. But I'm wondering if that is the alcohol brain & personality, or is it I am just bored with life because I have pretty much done it all.

Which brings to mind a question for you plantpr0....

...is it a fair assessment to say that not only your brain is now pre-addiction, but your personality also? Are you feeling that ole wonderment of life that you had pre-addiction?



Thanks for the journal man, I can clearly see more going on than weekly units dropping.

I just finished to read your whole thread and, WHAT A WONDERFULL FANTASTIC TESTIMONIAL! This is story like that that newbies have to read from the beginning to the end the first time. Everyone that didn't read all of this I greatly suggest it you to do. It take times but the treatment take times too.

I liked when Magda suggested you to try alcohol free beer like Beck and on your next log you tried it. It was your first AF days. This is FAR more better than some trying to force themselves with some other dangerous stuff only to reach there AF days.

Keep the good work and thank you very much for this great story. I'm looking for more to read.

I which you find someday your women of your life. Choose wisely!