Hi Cheeto - I'm right here beside you and not doing any better than you either. It's funny you talking about being convinced you are going to die of cancer. I keep having this terror that I'm going to keel over and have a heart attack!!

I've been out walking my dogs and suddenly feel like I can't breathe - but it only happens when I think about it, so it's probably some sort of panic attack. Part of me worries that I'm not only drinking too much but I'm also pumping myself with Nal. Ho hum - still drinking far to much, although I actually did achieve ONE AF day last week. I actually took my Selincro, but by the time I reached the hour point, we had already started eating dinner and I really couldn't be bothered to get up and open a bottle of wine. That's a first for me! However, it hasn't happened again and I'm still drinking far too much every night.
Hang on in there my friend - Nal on! xxxx