Week 43, 16 units, 4 af. Went out 4 nights but only drank 3 with a 6, 5 and 5 beer nights. The nal continues to strengthen and I believe my switch is becoming broken in the off position as opposed to the decades I experienced in the on position. Had a super bowl party and quite a few friends commented on how far I've come. It was nice to respond I was kicking a$$ when asked how I was and how I was doing. I was able to drink with them and socialize. But as you know, never got high and kept it at a solid mindful event. I want to try and convey something that I have mentioned before and that is the long term effects of being on nal. As I mentioned before, I believe the nal just isn't just targeting my alcohol addiction. But rather all my addictions I've created throughout my life. Whether it was the work, food, sex, sports, spirituality, internet and on and on. I was never able to really balance them in my life and put them in a healthy proper context. I became too one sided, if that makes sense? We live in a world that has become so busy and complicated that I have always got sidetracked in a way by the BLING of life. I've always created these little pockets of addiction to consul myself so to speak but at the expense of a good healthy balance. With the nal's effect of smoothing these things out. I feel I'm in a much better position to evaluate what's really important and therefor act in my favor. I'm no longer drawn or torn in one way or another by my addictions. But rather experience a very peaceful state of existence to choose from. I've thought before about starting a separate thread about the spiritual side effects of taking nal. That is when you remove all the things that constantly sidetrack you. You are in a much better position to experience the truth of life and therefore learn to abide by it's law. It's like we get the effects of meditation as a TSM bonus. That's pretty cool isn't it? In signing out for the week I'm very happy. I love my life. Keep the course and watch the miracle as you become un-drugged by the illusion of alcohol. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks: 1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af 2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af 3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af......................43-16, 4 af 4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af 5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af 6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af 7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af 8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af 9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af 10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af
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