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Well, 12 weeks in and I'm either regressing badly and losing my edge, or really embracing TSM and letting go of what I think I should be doing (forcing moderation to a degree) and now unwittingly trusting the subconscious science of it all. I had a nice long honeymoon, which is typical of the way I approach new things I am excited about. Then I inevitably lose focus, get bored and old behavior starts back up. I am still following the Golden Rule, and still have hope this is the answer. I am back up to about 1/2 my pre-Nal level, cravings are up and hangovers are back. I am basically doing what I was doing before starting this, but drinking a little less. It is messing with my mind because I want to be cured, but I am definitely not indifferent right now. I want to drink earlier every day and usually do. So, yeah, overall drinking less than before, but feeling a little down and discouraged I could not maintain the curve I was on and marching steadily toward extinction, unless that is exactly what I am doing. Who knows?
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