Thanks Kekede!
You know in my second week I can already tell that something is happening, that there is an effect for me, and I wonder what it's like for the 1 in 5 that it doesn't work for? Is it simply no effect, or do they do something wrong?
Anyway, I'm not setting any time limit. I'm either going to follow the golden rule for the rest of my days, or eventually go AF. It's one or the other.
The third option...........well let's just say it's not an option and leave it at that.
Also I neglected to give you guys any bio, so for introductions sake, I'm 55, I own and live on a farm with my wife of 25 years, two sons 10 and 15, three dogs, 12 Golden Campine chickens, two Berkshire hogs, and a sheep. That's just hobby stuff though, I have a day job and a crop share the farmland with a professional farmer. It's not a bad life and I have nothing to complain about, but I have bad genes, and too much time alone on the farm was not good..............father, grandfathers, several aunts, uncles, and first cousins, all alcoholics. Bipolar runs in the family too, but I somehow dodged that bullet. I used to smoke grass in my younger days along with a 2 pack a day Marlboro habit but I gave them both up 25 plus years ago.
I have talked to counselors and doctors about my drinking, tried hypnosis, campral and antabuse, but never set foot in an AA meeting or attempted any kind of 12 step. Saw it backfire/fail too many times in others and steered clear I guess. Didn't trust the broken man/let the spirit guide you or whatever it is they tell you. I had a friend die this past summer after a rehab 12 step program relapse, and it was really sad and ugly to watch......helpless. I didn't know about TSM at the time but I wish I had. He was a scientist, and maybe it would have worked. Anyway I'm pretty much an atheist at heart, and the science based Sinclair Method is much more to my way of thinking.
I love books, the outdoors, my wife and kids, the land I live on, and have a lot to be grateful for, but alcohol is an insidious drug, and it has a ways of creeping in and tearing things apart. In a few months I think I'll have more to say on that, but for now, that's pretty much me, myself, and I in a nutshell.
