| After abandoning NAL a couple of years ago, my drinking has quickly escalated and after a couple of embarassing events, i knew it was time to attack the problem head on again.   I tried to go back to AA, and just couldn't do the abstinence thing.  I don't want to totally stop drinking, i want to enjoy a relaxing glass of wine with dinner.   But one turns into two, and then three, and then bar the door Hannah!  I know that my body has a low tolerance for alcohol (due to weight loss surgery 13 years ago), yet i don't know how to turn off the switch!  
 I had some NAL left over, that i found when cleaning out my linen closet, so started taking them.  While researching, on buying more, i ran into an article on Vivitrol.   I did some research, and found a doctor in my area that provided the shots.  He is not in my insurance network, but my insurance will pay for the shot.  I pay him $175.00/month for the injection administration.   I took the shot on 5/27 and spoke to the Dr.   He knows nothing about the Sinclair Method, and he advised me that this shot was only for those who are abstinent, so i had to tell a white lie.  He asked how long i had been in recovery.    He is 26 years sober, and definitely talks the AA talk.
 
 I made a decision, that the white lie is worth the reward.   If i don't have to take that pill before drinking, waiting that hour, it would be easier for me not to cheat.  I have had a "honeymoon" of sorts in the first couple of weeks.   I am going to be more diligent beginning next week in recording my units.   I have been having 3-4 drinks a night, but waking up with a giant hang over, which is unusual for me.   Prior i was drinking 5-7 drinks/night and woke up with little effect.   Didn't take me long to remember those headaches, i believe someone on her described them as having a spike driven through your skull).
 
 I am attending one AA meeting on the weekend, and a recovery group, sponsored by my church during the week.  Although i am not going to be adhering to all of their tenants, i believe that being surrounded and talking with people who share this condition will be beneficial, just as posting on this site and being accountable to someone.
 
 The weekend is around the corner, and i actually look forward to accomplishing things around the house, that i usually would delay.   In the past, i would start drinking around noon, have 2-3, then nap for a couple of hours, and start drinking again.   Sunday was a repeat of Saturday, then it was back to work on Monday with a giant hangover, and everyone saying how tired i looked at work.   I'm ready to not hear that anymore.   I want them to say that i am looking nice, I want to give my full attention to my job and my family.
 
 My husband is a big supporter of me, but he is also a heavy drinker.   He, of course, says that he knows when to turn his off.   Wish that i did.
 
 So, here i am again, once again on this roller coaster ride!
 Movergal
 
 
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