Ruthy wrote:
For me, at the moment, I still like wine and get a different level of enjoyment out of it but the switch which said "have more" has been turned off....the switch that says "have some" is still in the on position.
"That sounds ideal," Melissa said thoughtfully.
But your consumption still isn't as low as you'd like, right? So the "have more" must be dialed up a bit higher than you'd really like.
Ruthy wrote:
This wasn't in your flowchart but I also wanted to comment on what you said in your blog about pregnancy and how you'd lost the desire for alcohol. I never experienced that. I didn't drink when pregnant or breastfeeding, but I still wanted to. It wasn't quite whiteknuckling as I knew that alcohol would be harmful and so I could pacify my brain with that somehow, but throughout I was looking forward to the day when I could have a glass of wine again. I wonder what, if any, significance that might have?
As we keep telling each other, everybody's different. I was fortunate in that pregnancy affected me in that way, so that it wasn't a problem (avoiding cigarettes, on the other hand, was a huge problem).
The most significant part of that, to me, was that it was obvious and undeniable proof that biochemistry was part of this problem. The switch was much too sudden for it to be the result of better life choices, more appealing options, etc. It was instant, and that meant it was part of the physiological changes.
Armed with that memory, I had my eyes wide open for the TSM shift out of addiction. Someone who hasn't had the experience of addiction abruptly crumbling away to nothing would probably have a different experience of TSM.
This would be a good blog topic. Would you like to do a back-and-forth with me? We're two mothers with distinctly different experiences, and that could be quite informative.