Hey kekede,
I certainly appreciate the "roller-coaster" ride that I read everybody who came before me posting about a lot more now. It's not a miracle and it certainly takes effort. Stick with it, more than ever I believe that the Sinclair Method works.

Yesterday was 10 days, I should be fully detoxed. My new shipment is in, I just have to go to the post office and pick it up. I'm more in control than I've ever been the past 12 years, but I can tell I'm not in full control yet. I'm going to have to decide when to do some reinforcement so my brain knows that even if I were to start drinking again, it's not going to get the "high".

So, I did it. I got my Nal and I drank last night. One 24oz Steel Reserve wasn't enough, but two was too much, I drank about 1 and 3/4. I'm going dry today, see how it goes.

Hi Skylar

That's brilliant you did the 10 days .. I've only managed 3 AF in a row .. then caved! You must have been feeling pretty good after that!

Do you think the more AFs you do ... the easier it is? I know Generic supports this idea

Great to hear you've become a "two can Stan!"

Lorraine

Hey Skylar! Super proud of you that you stayed dry rather than drinking off nal. I haven't been without nal since I began this process, and I don't know... I hope I could have done what you did.

I remember the days of withdrawal. Shaky hands. Upset stomach. Bats flying around the room. Worst of all for me - the crippling anxiety. At my worst I once woke up at 5am to the sound of an extremely loud passing by truck. I started panicking that Boston was under NUCLEAR ATTACK. Seems ridiculous now, but at the time I was quite worried. I had to get on my computer and check the news. I couldn't sleep so drank slowly, without pleasure from 6am-8am, then went back to bed and wrote off work for the day. OH, then there was that other morning that I was awoken at 8am to the sound of an ambulance siren. That time, I was worried that I had died, and the ambulance was coming to get me, I just didn't know it yet.

Wow, I don't miss those days.

Anyway, keep it up. You are kinda at the beginning still, so expect some ups and some downs, but what you have written so far seems very encouraging.

I feel so many of the things that people who are cured have said they feel. But I still can't stop drinking even though it is no longer fun. What am I missing?

Hmm.

Did you, by any chance, have a feeling of hopelessness/depression when you first began?

Something else to do?

I found that I had to replace the alcohol with other activities. Boredom is my biggest problem now.

Boredom is also my problem. I also suffer from sciatica and this affects what I can do. I used to be an avid gym goer, but can't really do that.

Also I've moved from town, Windsor, to a little village 2 hours away to be near my sister.....I don't see her much, and only when she wants something! (I wish I hadn't moved and am depressed too)

The xmas holiday hasn't helped me either, so I'm going to put some effort in after the hols are over and try to get some sort of part time work, and not buy as much. If I only buy one bottle it's 5 miles to the nearest shop!!