Read his thread yeah 

 But I have a little cheer too, today is my 6th day AF!  

 That is the longest in half a year. I could have taken easily here but for some reason I have slept like a baby and although I almost couldn't eat (detox/fasting cure of a week), I did a run today and my feelings and energy are returning back to normal. No panic attacks, no feeling nauseous (hooray!). I have also thought that a lot of the stress coming to me is from not being able to say no and not wanting to miss out. 
And thinking I miss out on a lot of fun and good times because I am sedated by the alcohol, is not what I want... And I have recently seen a few episodes on Youtube of the series Intervention which quite scared me. My future should not be that way! 
I don't want to go back to work everyday with stress, but it seems when I have no stress, I have no problems sleeping... So my cure would either resist of taking a combination of Naltrexone and some stress reliever which is not alcohol or a benzo haha. I start with a course of mindfulness in January, so maybe that will be my resting point 
 
 Good weekend to all!