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Hello all, used to be a member here. Just thought I'd pipe in and tell u what i have discovered about myself. Seems alcohol was not really my problem. Seems alcohol was more of a temporary solution which is why I wanted to stop but then again didn't want to stop. This is also the reason that AA and TSM did not work for me. Both offered a solution to a problem that I didn't have. Both convinced me that I had a problem that I didn't have. Liking alcohol is not a problem. Not being able to enjoy life while not drinking is a problem. With me, I had to learn to be alive and happy with that. Once I was over the physical withdrawls(which naltrexone helped with) i was able to deal with the mental and spiritual damage that AA contributed to. I can now drink( and do) when and how much I want. Without guilt and without pills or meetings. Again, this is how it worked out for me. TSM dealt with the physical but it was up to me to find help for the real problem which was mental and spiritual and had nothing to with alcohol. This is where AA got it so wrong. They told me that my real problems were caused by alcohol and actually made me feel guilty for trying to ease the pain of living. Well for what its worth, i hope u all find your way. One thing that helped me discover the truth was to keep asking myself, why do I drnk so much. And here's a clue, it had nothing to do with a disease or a spiritual malady. It had to do with pain and a desire to ease that pain if only temorarily. But for me the real cure was not a pill or a meeting. Rather the answer lay in learning to love myself enough to stop blaming myself for the harm that was inflicted on me. Something that AA refises to accept and that TSM doesnt acknowlege, some pain and most problems are not alcohol related. So anyhow, ill keep lurking and hoping you all find your way.
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