HI Everyone,

If I have helped anyone, I am glad. It has been my goal to be completely honest at all times. I was saved because I read honest threads on this site that allowed me to take a leap of faith with this method.

Truthfully, I don't think my goal was ever abstinance. I wanted to be able to be social, drink at special occasions, weddings, etc. I wanted to be free of the compulsion, and out of the spiral that I was in that was leading to my ruin.

I am at the point where I like to drink, but I can see that alcohol is a barrier between my wife and I. I desperately wish that I could muster the determination to come to bed completely sobre and hold her in my arms without guilt. When she smells liquor on me, she is brought back to her memories of the worst of times for us and withdraws. And I totally understand. I know that she is virtually alcohol free and if I was as well, things would be Heavenly.

I know that it is affecting my weight. I need to lose 30 pounds to be at my ideal weight. I exercise almost every day now. I eat almost perfectly until I start to drink. Then, who knows what I will consume. I am perfectly disciplined in what enters my system until I have had my NAL and a couple of drinks. Even still, I am slowly losing weight from my worst time which was 1 year ago.

I also know that drinking the way I am is certainly not good for my organs and health. I am conscious of my mortality. I have the best children and family ever and I want to be here for them as long as I can.

I hope that I am not delusional in thinking and feeling that, despite the extraordinary length of time that I have been on TSM, I truly feel that I am still getting better.

All the best to all and thanks again for all of the support.

Hi JDog,
I was a little sad reading your post....glad that you are so much better thanks to TSM but sad that you haven't quite made it.

I feel that one doesn't get freedom from alcohol unless one can muster up some AF time. I know from my own experience that when I was using Nal and drinking daily I felt good that my unit intake had dropped (and I was reducing damage to myself) but I was still thinking about alcohol and wrestling w/ reducing my numbers on a daily basis. I too enjoyed going to sleep with a little buzz....couldn't imagine going to bed sober....didn't think I could get to sleep sober. When the s#$t hit the fan w/ my marriage and I had to quickly sober-up, I resorted to sleeping pills to get to sleep. And it worked. My goal of course was to be drowsy and get to sleep w/out the alcohol. Over time, I'm tapering off the sleeping pills...resorting to less potent aids like Sleepy Time tea and warm milk. And in the meantime I'm 40 days AF (w/ 1 glass of wine in there last week). I feel so much more in control and the fact that I'm not thinking about drinking everyday and when to take my Nal everyday, etc, has made a huge difference.

Thank you for staying w/ the forum and sharing your story....I hope you can figure out a way to get over that last big hurdle of the daily drinking....Hang in there!

J Dog, the AF nights I resisted so long now seem easy. There are still a few brief, mild spasms of longing but at this point I notice there is also a calm, peaceful quality to these AF nights...I'm being compensated by this sensation in exchange for "giving up" the other. Last night, I had 2 beers at home, slowly, deliberately and then quit. I noticed I felt kind of...bitchy while I was drinking. The initial buzz was okay, but it didn't progress to "more happiness", that's for sure! I'm starting to think that drinking doesn't REALLY bring out the best in me...

As a LONG time daily drinker, breaking that cycle has been key. Though I am pretty good now about deciding I will be AF on a particular evening, when I'm in doubt about my resolve - or see that that there are triggers that might slip me up - then I take a small dose of antabuse. This has been a real helpful tool for me - it just reminds me I've made a decision to not drink and that I mustn't follow some whim or impulse to do otherwise. I got my antabuse from All Day, also. It was only in taking antabuse that I was ever able to string together more than 1 day AF - for some reason that was tough, but now I seem to be past that hurdle, also...very cool.

Have you followed Half Glass? She is on the Cured list w/ something in the title about "16 months"...a time frame similar to yours. She kind of was treading water for a while and then made some changes that helped her shoot forward to her cure, and is continuing to check in w/ very good reports!

Hello Everyone,

I am still here. I am drinking daily on NAL. I am getting closer to a cure every day. I know it.

My life improves every day.

Hey Everyone,

I am here. I am great. Life is good. So sorry for not checking in for a while. Apologies to anyone who followed me and who is wondering what is going on. As the alcohol problem fades away, real life re-emerges and real life gets busy. I am truly sorry for neglecting this community.

Not off the sauce totally yet, sadly. But, life is great in every way. I use NAL every time before I drink. I have my life back.

Exercising every day. I can have one drink, or two and stop. I have absolutely no risk of losing control with booze anymore. For me to get drunk and pass out or lose control, I have to make a conscious decision to drink to that level.

My daughter is 16 and has a part time job that requires us to pick her up after 11 pm. I have no trouble on those nights, not drinking until pickup and bringing her home. I remember when i struggled on a Saturday to make it past noon without drinking.

I have had one or two AF days a week for the last little while. Anyone with more willpower than me would have that to 4-5 days per week AF by now.

This drug saved my life, my job, my marriage, and my family.

More soon. If you have read my story and can relate, please take this drug every time one hour before you drink and you will cure yourself with a little willpower.

If you can relate to my situation, alcoholic or spouse, please PM me and I will share my experience with you and offer support. I am happy to answer any questions.

If you are an alcoholic and feel like you are going to lose control or die. I urge you to give this program a try. It worked for me, as advertised. It took a lot longer than 3 months for me, but it worked.

Blessings to all. NAL on.

I owe my life to NAL and this site.

Great to hear from someone who has been on TSM for a long time. Thanks for the great informative thread.

Wow thanks for posting this and so glad you've got your life back. When folk are quiet about recovery it raises doubts about the efficacity of the method. I've only had a quick glance through this thread but it looks as if it took quite a bit of patience so well done - and hopefully this will spur others on when they hit the rocky patches which do occur on TSM.

Jdog,

Thanks for the documentary. 29 pages! I can't wait to read thru it and get caught up on you experience. I read page 1 and page 29 so far. Now to read 2-28.

I am only in week 15, but only have huge praises for Naltrexone and this Sinclairs Method so far.

Chris.

JDog,

Awesome news ... I remember not so long ago when you were wondering if it was ever going to work for you. I am so glad to hear that you stuck it out and had the ultimate success.

Diver