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Hey everyone. Quick check in before re-sabotaging my account for another week or so. It has actually been great for me not logging onto this website. Everything is going fantastically -- still no drinks or desires, still working out regularly, almost no angry outbursts, lots of smiles and laughter. The main difference now is that this is the "new normal" for me so I really don't even think about drinking much and, if I do, I have yet to have a worthy temptation in at least 8 weeks!
A good comparison is when I first started working nights. For the first few weeks, I would look at the clock and be like, "Wow. It's 1:00AM and I'm still awake...Man, it's 5:00Am. Normally, I would be in bed right now." After awhile, you just stop thinking like that because your brain can only be amazed for so long before it just adjusts. So, when I started TSM, I'd be like, "Wow, it's 5:30PM and I still haven't drank...Man, it's 10:00PM and I haven't had anything." Those thoughts are fading into oblivion, which really helps. I still wake up nightly to pee and, every single time, I do my usual "how much did I drink last night?," then quickly realize, "Oh, nothing!" This is fading, too.
I would highly recommend extended periods of abstaining to really, really break the cycle.
Peace!
P.S. I'm already working on my "cured" post, which I hope to post on Easter. Warning: It will be long (and dramatic).
_________________ Barry Pre TSM 25-40 drinks per week, every night off, compulsively,secretly,lots of risky behavior Wk Count: 11, 4, 4, 2, 7.5, 2.5,2,2 Cured 0,0,0,0, 0.5, 1.5, 1, 0, 1, 2, 0.5,0,0,8,2,32,3,0,2,5,10,5,9,7,0 Peace Out!
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