Well, when I spoke to my son it turns out he has been worried about me because of what he sees at work. About a year ago, he got a job as a bar prep at a high end restaurant. So he sees what goes on at the bars. People coming every night at five and staying until last call. He also saw what happened to his sister in the last year and a half, ie car repossesion, miscarraige, loss of job, loss of apartment, and two DUI's. Over this past year he's slowly become aware by witnessing all of this from his job and his sister. He does'nt drink and because of what he's seen he says it really turns him off. So, it looks like he was envisioning all of this happening to me and he was unecessarily worrying. We had a good talk. I told him, yes I do like my wine, but when I drink I do so with Dad at home. I never drive, I'm not out drinking and crashing up my car. And I said to him that I never want him to worry about me, I am fine and I am safe. And its very important to me that he thinks I'm a good mother. He said of course your a great mother and it all ended up quite well. So that's that. I was pretty freaked out about the whole thing and could not sleep. Our conversation took place at mid night when he arrived home from work. I am very glad we talked and it seems we've now grown a little bit closer than before.
I'm still not where I want to be with alcohol. This week the old nightly drinking started up again. I have to learn to stick with the weekends only. I just dont feel good when I drink every night. I know its bad for my health. So my goal for June is to stick to the weekends and go back to my safe levels once again. Monday May 27, 2013 will be my two year anniversary on TSM.
