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Hey guys,
It's been awhile since I posted. This is about my one month mark. I haven't updated my signature or been keeping up with drinks: not necessarily a bad thing as long as I stay motivated. After all, the rats never kept a drinking log right? Anyways, I should give you all an update and some details.
First off, I did not experience a honeymoon. Or rather, I'm still honeymooning. My first night drinking wasn't anything magical. I didn't drink much less than usual. I drank 12 which is on the low side of my average. I never drank less than 12 though pre-nal. So I thought, "what the heck It might not work." I'm in the same place as I was before. But over the next week, my units starting dropping not significantly, but dropping. I was drinking on average 8 before the week is over. Over the course of this month I've wavered around 8. I did have a spike one night of 15. The very next night it went down to 8 again.
I'm still a long way off from being "cured". I like the idea that my drinking is controllable, not even regained control, because I never really had control to begin with. Like a diabetic, I won't consider myself cured. I'll have to take my medicine to keep my "disease" from ruining my life. Which is not bad- it's just life.
Last night I drank 6. And, I was done. I felt like I hit a landmark. I didn't want anymore. I just went to sleep. Which is unheard of for me. I would take sleeping pills and drink past them haha. My drinking days are still about the same and I'm still drinking until I go to bed. But it's very slow. In fact, sometimes I'm not even drunk. But, I keep drinking. I think this is merely habit, and it will take a little willpower to start reversing this little idiosyncrasy. Or maybe the naltrexone will keep surprising me and do it for me. Thank you guys. I'll see you in another month maybe.
Lastly, if there's anyone out there in cyberland that runs across this post and are thinking of trying the sinclair method, I urge you to give it a go. It really is working, and I never thought anything would work for me. I felt like I was destined for a life of staying perpetually drunk and hungover. This gives me a way out.
_________________ Pre-TSM 60-70 drinks a week. 1-2 AF:
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