Here are some reasons, relevant to me only (hey, really I'm the only one I can talk about authoritatively), for stopping at just a couple. THE BIG ONE: I don't wake up the next day with all the same head issues, PLUS the additional burden of maybe having to apologize for something, or lie about something, or just feel like a total $h## for once again having been a failure at controlling my drinking. For a very long time I proved to myself that booze would indeed make anger, disappointment, jealousy, etc., etc., etc., fade away for a few hours, but it took me a couple decades to figure out the simple reality that the nexty morning it was all back, but worse. In addition to that, a good weight for me is around 190, and booze took me all the way up into the 230's, plus the beginnings of liver damage, plus high blood pressure, plus early neurological symptoms, plus some broken bones, plus some damaged vehicles, plus a couple near-misses with the police, plus a bunch of other downsides that I just don't have to be concerned with any more. Weight is now in the high 190's, headed down; BP is much better, might be able to drop the meds soon. Never drive drunk any more, much less belligerent when drunk so no concerns about the cops, and on and on and on. All thanks to calling it quits after just a few, and not even that except in appropriate circumstances. But TSM, while a help, is not the entire answer for me; I have to think about the why of every drink, and only take it if the answer I come up with is benign. And the first answer is not always the correct one; most of the time I have to dissect that first "why" and be sure I'm not just making something minor into a big deal to justify another drink.
So that's my story and I'm sticking to it. I'm in my fifth month, averaging three units per session, high so far five units, and weekly total of 15 or so with 2-3 AF days. If you choose to read up on me elsewhere you'll see I'm doing TSM starting from full sobriety, so not the typical scenario, but I was up well over 100 units a week this time last year. So it can be done with NAL+1 hour+drink+headwork. Without that last part, the slope is a lot steeper, as it took me far too long to discover.
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