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Just wondering if anyone sits and thinks about their "Triggers". For example, since i started TSM my daily cravings are so far below what they used to be my mind is blown, I have not had a single bender, never had a morning drink and never been drunk enough to wake up and think "oh no" due to excessive alcohol intake.
It used to be that cravings were so severe that id break and drink, or possibly things like anger or lonleyness/frustration would lead me to drink... but tonight, I ended up buying 2 of the large bottles of beer (which i am so proud of myself for considering the magnitude of my drink problem before), however I dont really know why I even bought them. Nothing actually seemed to "set me off", it was just like "ahh well il take a naltrexone and buy a couple of beers"... Almost as if because i feel "safe" drinking on naltrexone, im drinking every night (although miniscule amounts, i used to be a binge drinker where i was 24/7 for days then got days off - now im having a few each evening but not until late on).
Also, in the past ive noticed i seem to replace one addiction with another, for example, on the days before TSM when i was not drinking i would be smoking marijuana or taking temazepam/diazepam (valium) or librium (chlordiazepoxide) or codeine pain killers (i havent touched codeine in a long time).... This is a pattern that is definitely being broken as well (through a genuine want to just not be an addict any more), even though i still take librium here and there (although il be glad when they run out)... but im wondering did anyone else ever have this type of behaviour and if it was broken ? I think possibly because my main chronic addiction was alcohol, on the days not doing it, i needed something to "fill the gap" or to kill the panic attacks/anxiety, but im hoping that over time of TSM as alcohol becomes less and less important (which is happening already at a geometric rate), that i wont need these "gap fillers" so much.
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