OK so a report...
3 nights ago i took naltrexone and bought 6 cans of beer... after the first-third cans i noticed it to be quite boring and no "buzz", but i proceeded to finish the 6... i would have drank more if it was there, a craving still existed but nowhere near as extreme as normal... after the third-6th cans there was a buzz and euphoria off the alcohol....
last night, i took naltrexone and bought 6 cans, again noticing that the first few wernt that great, no fix... but i finished them... i then proceeded to go and buy another 3, so i drank 9 in total... and i can remember thinking "il get up early and buy more tomorrow"... now... the hangover today is atrocious and there is no real craving, and im not going to buy more.. but im annoyed that i didnt just stick to the 6... and that that obsession came in to play - it definitely was there
my plan had been to work down from 6, down and down and down over time until im not interested any more but there is still a buzz after the first few... im wondering is this the cunning baffling way that it always gets me "lets me away with it" a few times so im feeling confident then BANG..
