I have been stalking this site since I came across it a few weeks ago, very informative!!! A little about me.....I am 38 yo, married, mom of 3. I come from a long line of alcoholics, both side or the family. I grew up in loving dysfunction but apparently not without the tendency to addiction. I partied with the rest through my teen years, then got the hell out of that shithole town and on my own moved 4 hours away the day I graduated. Struggled through a phase of vodka drinking, to excess for a few years. Then, settled down and became a wife and mother. My drinking consisted of a glass of wine on occasion and that continued for a few years. After that divorce, started to party, alcohol and cocaine. Settled down again......fast forward to current time, drinkIng Is nightly, several shots of vodka mixed drinks or a bottle or two of wine. I have had maybe one AF day in the past few years.

I know exactly when my drinking went Out of control. In one year, my grandparents died, lost my job, dx with cancer, watched my dad then a few days later my mom took her last breath (both cancer, both under 60 and both very unexpected)! Quite an ordeal to say the least. It was all made worse by the fact I was the one to take cAre of funerals and their estates ( they werent mIronically, I first read about nalexone in an article my mom saved (along with pics of her and the house after another drunken beating from my stepdad (did i mention the asshole lived with me for several weeks while mom was in the hospital?). That alone would drive anyone to drink. Anyways, that was all a couple years ago he losses continue to be greatly painful but I'm managing better this year, other than the drinking. I've tried and can't go a night without.

I placed an order through River a week ago and have started keeping track of units I drink. Sure seems like a lot more when I put it on paper The past week average is 10 units a day....holy ****, that's 70 units a week!!! Until I started keeping track I thought some of you with that number were waaaayyy worse off drinkers than me!! Anyways, my son has started high school and i have noticed our drinking bOthers him (hubby drinks nightly too, roughly same amount).

I can hardly wait to receive my RX and get started. No body knows, except all of you reading this, don't Plan to tell anyone either. None of my friends know I drink to this extent. I'm tired of feeling crappy the next day, feeling like I just get through the day to wait for my drinking to start that evening. Definatly some depression/anxiety issues but I know I will overcome all that once I get my drinking under control.

I feel A great sense of encouragement after reading about others experience. So many of the thoughts and feelings, shame and embarrassment Many of you have expressed, read like my own! Any and all encouragement is welcome! I will update when my meds arrive, which I hope is SOON!!! Thank you all for sharing your experience. It really does help!

Welcome to the group L-D.

Getting a chart going is a critical first step in this process. Keep it accurate and up-to-date throughout.

Let us know how we can be of help, and read as deeply into the various threats as you can find time for. As you can see, there's been some exciting and encouraging success stories of late. TSM can take determination (in addition to patience) but the rewards are obviously worth it!

Thanks Tiller. I think I was a little off on what I first considered a unit of alcohol but after reading through some of these threads, I think I've got it figured out. It still puts me b/w 50-71 units a week though I hope to see progress like you. Even if it takes several months, I've got time!

Guess what?! I just recieved my order of Nal from River Pharmacy!!!! That just made my day

Hi LD - just wanted to also extend you a welcome.

Glad to hear you got your shipment from River in. I also agree that they are great to work with, even though I go through my pcp these days. You sound very excited to kick this thing off, so I'd recommend starting a thread in the Weekly Progress section whenever you're ready. You'll get a lot of support and feedback there, as that particular forum is the most active.

Best of luck to you!

-H

Thanks for the tip, I'm going to start a weekly progress thread as suggested.