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First question, do people really care about profanity on here? I'm not talking about name calling to a board member (every seems damn nice so far....whoops). But it would feel good to vent without restraining myself. I will until I get your feedback.
If you don't have time, please skip to the very important questions at the end.
So check out my signature. It's hard for me to piece any kind of timeline together really, but though far above the "recommended" healthy amounts which seem so ridiculous right now, I was being VERY good relatively speaking. I don't remember what happened. But it was your typical trainwreck. I mean, no REAL disasters but it sucks pretty bad when your parents have to drive 45 miles every day to take your son back and forth to school because they know you are completely incapable of doing a decent job of taking care of him. You know they're worried about you killing yourself, whether liver, accident, whatever. I am 34 by the way. Watching your mom cry while you sit on the floor smoking cigarettes with one eye closed, which you NEVER smoke inside in your right mind because its disgusting. Smoking period, is to me personally - when I can maintain, I am a total gym rat. I've quit so many times, and then the benbder comes, and it's time to chainsmoke. SO FRUSTRATING!
OK, so the next part of the story involves the questions. The good thing is, I got my nal quicker than expected from India. So I started it yesterday. I took 25mg at 9a, drank half a beer at 1030ish, half one at 12 and one around 2:30 by a pretty powerful act of will since I wanted to receive my son back and stop putting my parents through hell. That worked. Took another 25mg around 2p, which leads me to:
I read on here that max effectiveness is 6-8 hours for the med. That's why I reupped in the afternoon. This morning I too 50mg around 11am because I was so withdrawal-ridden with anxiety that I was afraid I'd sneak off to the bar for a min. Fortunately, toughed it out. Of course I am sipping a beer now as soon as I am home, but that's beside the point.
If you're so bad you're drinking in the morning, another does IS necessary, right? And how do you time it? An hour before the 6-8 hour mentioned above.
Another problem I had last night (not the first time), since I of course can't sleep worth SHIZ, is that I woke up at like 3am and pounded a beer in the middle of the night, fortunately just one and was able to get a couple more hours after that. Now THAT'S a hard problem to solve if you're not still "covered" by the drug.
So I suppose it boils down to timing and effective taking of the medication. I just wrote a book here , but would love to hear your thoughts.
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