Tiller the chick magnet! LOL

Glad to see you doing so well! You keep things light and add some mirth, which in most of our cases is desperately needed!

Good luck!

Glad to see you're doing well Tiller, and everyone else hijacking the thread I agree with a lot of posters that one AF day is easy, and two a bit harder...for me 3 is where it gets hard. I feel like after 3 afs I get a bit of ADE and tend to go overboard on day 4...

Howdy fellow travelers:

Seems like I'm in a kind of plateau period the last month. Staying under 30 per week (good!) but still having one or two excessive nights with the accompanying sluggish and blue day afterward (bad!). I've seen this in other threads. After a big drop, a flat period, followed by another decline some weeks/months later. I'm not too worried about it but also not too self content.

It's been especially hard to stay in any kind of routine. Lots of family drama and also a lot of travel last few weeks. Both are triggers. I'm much more in control than a year ago, so that's great. But not where I need to be yet.

Only other thought to add: I've been worrying a bit about our friend Ketch up in Alaska. She was really on a positive streak and then went to total radio silence.

Hi Tiller - looks you and I are continuing to ride out this plateau stage. Personally, I feel like <30 weekly totals and a few big nights every once in awhile is pretty much where I want to end up, so you certainly are in great shape, buddy. I'm also finding that the "blue" feeling after a binge is particularly amplified on Nal. Maybe it's just a more sensitive self-awareness - in the past, I guess I felt pretty numb when I was hanging, but now I get bummed out because I treat a hangover like a step back. Something like that.

I'm also a little concerned about Ketch. I understand that people move on from this forum once they get close to "cured," but she struck me as someone that would give us a colorful head's up if she was going to take an extended hiatus. She was very busy though, so I'm sure she's just tied up with work stuff.

Anyway, just keep on keeping on and we'll get there.

-H

OMG, exactly! I'm much more unhappy w/ myself when I have a hangover these days, and also physically they're worse to boot...a double whammy. I just get really mad at myself that I'm still pulling this s**t. Last night I had 5 beers, FIVE! WHY??? At 3...and then 4...I was not feeling very good, and so I thought FIVE would be the magic #??? No, then I was just...drunk, in a bad way - no warmth, just sloppy & sleepy. Getting drunk these days just seems...sleazy! Still, thank God for the numbers, because I can look at them and see how very far I've come! Still, I'm impatient: whenever I have a breakthrough, I think I'm going to just LEAP forward, but...no...plod, plod, plod...

I guess I can't blame old Lizard Brain for trying...but when will the dumb b***h just GIVE UP???

Thanks, you guys, for reaching out to Ketch...that's so funny, as the FIRST thing I was going to do on the Forum today was to look at her posts and see if I'd missed something along the way from her...

Chrissie

Hey, Tiller! The plateaus stink. I hit one at 40 units. Then 30 units. I figure soon I’ll hit one in the 20’s. As long as those plateaus are followed by drops, man, we are living the dream!

I feel bad after drinking too much too. Its odd, but I now know I have a choice. And I chose to drink too much. Plus, nal makes it hurt worse. Keeps me on the straight and norrow! It’s like having a girlfriend that’s mean and devious…. Step out of line and you pay! LOL

Your progress thread keeps my spirits up more than you know. Hang in there!

Tiller, it sounds like you're keeping it together pretty well (maintaining a good status quo), considering the external triggers, w/ travel, family matters, etc. Plateaus! It's like treading water...never a favorite thing, but sometimes you gotta just stay afloat. And yes, to keep reminding yourself of how much better things are than say, LAST Easter. For me, the monotony of the plateaus are really balanced by those time comparisons...our progress is tremendous, and the next breakthroughs will be exciting. Somehow, it being spring time seems very appropriate to where I am now w/ TSM...so much hope and joy, now, and also to anticipate.

Chrissie

"OMG, exactly! I'm much more unhappy w/ myself when I have a hangover these days, and also physically they're worse to boot...a double whammy. I just get really mad at myself that I'm still pulling this s**t. Last night I had 5 beers, FIVE! WHY??? At 3...and then 4...I was not feeling very good, and so I thought FIVE would be the magic #??? No, then I was just...drunk, in a bad way - no warmth, just sloppy & sleepy. Getting drunk these days just seems...sleazy!"

Yep, that about says it all

I agree with you Tiller that hangovers and the blues are worse now, partially because of nal and partially because we feel them as a setback. But seriously, you've made great progress and you should be content to hang out at the plateau for a little bi t:)

Heya tiller!!!

Haven't talked in awhile, I guess I've been kinda selfish lately. You know, because it's all about me... Been struggling especially with the blues, having a hard time getting outta myself. I'm gonna try and keep pushing forward, just wanted to say hey and Happy Easter to you and your family!

Smiles, Zippy

Thanks Zip, and same to all y'all.

Overdid it again last night. Working it off today. Lizard brain is still fighting it out here on the plateau.

It is striking how many of us are in the same place at the moment. Looking forward to the trail ahead and another downward slope!