Hi everyone

Thanks heaps for all your support. I so hope you're right about this being the last hurdle! HG - Wonderful to hear from you and know you are still going with TSM. (And making progress.)

Well, the 10-day break didn't happen, but it's certainly been a better week. Sat night we had a dinner at my husband's cousin's. My sister-in-law was there controlling the conversation the women were having and totally ignoring me. Once before she ignored me for 18 months until I apologised and made up to her. This latest ignoring started before my weekend bender - it was b/c I told her I was stressed about money too and she obviously didn't think I had as much right as her to be stressed. Suggested lunch and never heard back. Am over her rudeness and lack of respect. It ruined the evening for me and I felt I had to drink to get through it! Also felt depressed on Sun and drank more, but no disappearing.

Have felt better after 4 days AF (including today) and am aiming for at least another day. We have friends coming to stay in the weekend who are very supportive. I expect I will probably drink. Really don't want to overdo it as our kids have a full on sporting weekend and I will be up early on Sun for youngest's triathlon.

As I said, the financial stress is easing a bit. Also have lots of work ahead. Hubby & I have discussed a couple of other issues we don't always agree on and have made some plans to compromise, so that is all good.

Time to check some other posts.

Take care
Sticky

Week 1: 1,8,AF,3,AF,AF,3.5 total 15.5,3AF Week 2: AF,8,8,AF,AF,4,8 total 28, 3AF
Week 3: 4,8,AF,8,AF,5,AF total 25, 3AF Week 4: 16,AF,8,7,AF,10,AF total 41, 3AF
Week 5: 7,12,8,AF,8,AF,8 total 43, 3AF Week 6: AF,5,12,AF,AF,8,AF total 25, 4AF
Week 7: AF,14,AF,6,AF,5,AF total 25, 4AF Week 8: 8, AF, 12, 12, AF, 1.5, 1.5 total 35, 2AF
Week 9: 12, AF, 10, 2,AF, 10, AF total 32, 3AF Week 10: 9, AF, 10, AF,1.5, 6.5, AF total 27, 3AF
Week 11: 12, AF, 14, 3.5, 1, AF, 7.5 total 38, 2AF Week 12: AF, 8 AF, 9, 2, AF, AF total 19, 4AF
Week 13: 8.5, AF, 9, AF, 12, AF, 14 total 43.5, 3AF Week 14: 7.5, AF, 8, AF, AF, 9, 9 total 33.5, 3AF
Wek 15: AF, 9, AF, 9, AF, 9, 10 total 37, 3AF Week 16: total 34, 2AF
Week 17: total 32, 3AF Week 18: total 34, 4AF
Week 19: total 33, 3AF Week 20: 32, 3AF
Week 21: total 38, 3AF Week 22: 29.5, 4AF
Week 23: 34.5, 3AF Week 24: 36, 4AF
Week 25: 30.5, 3AF Week 26: 29, 3AF
Week 27: 22, 4AF Week 28: 33, 2AF
Week 29: 24, 4AF Week 30: 23, 4AF
Week 31: 19, 5AF Week 32: 29, 4AF
Week 33: 29.5, 3AF Week 34: 20, 3AF
Week 35: 35, 2AF Week 36: 20.5, 3AF
Week 37: 30, 3AF Week 38: 16, 5AF
Week 39: 32, 2AF Week 40: 23, 3AF
Week 41: 27, 3AF Week 42: 24, 4AF
Week 43: 37, 2AF Week 44: 29, 3AF
Week 45: 24, 3AF Week 46: 25, 3AF
Week 47: 29, 3AF Week 48: 25, 3AF
Week 49: 26, 2AF Week 50: 26, 1AF
Week 51: 20, 3AF Week 52: 25.5, 3AF
Week 53: 23.5, 4AF Weeks 54 - 56: 25, 3AF
Week 57: 30, 2AF, Week 58: 35, 1AF
Week 59: 16, 5AF, Week 60: 20, 4AF
Week 61: 25, 2AF, Week 62: 25, 3AF
Week 63: 20, 4AF, Week 64: 15, 4AF
Week 65: 25, 3AF, Week 66: ??
Week 67: 15, 5AF

Oh sticky, I feel all your pain. I'm with you 100% and I feel increasingly like we have similar problems despite our different backgrounds....
Hang in there. It's going to be ok.

Hey Sticky,

Ya know I'm looking at your stats and you aren't doing too badly. And I'm so happy that you pulled off 5 AF days! People can be so rude sometimes as you mentioned. I can totally understand how a conment can send a person over the edge. I wish you luck this coming weekend with your guests. Also, glad to hear financial woes are easing a bit.

Keep plugging... )

Sticky, Hiiii !!!!!

I can understand the sister in law stress, I use to have one that was unbearable, thankfully she isn't in the family any more. It is hard not to let them get to you because of the family thang.

Looking through your numbers are encouraging, be proud, you are doing something about it. OMG 5 AF days in a row! You are a winner!!!

Zippy

How was last week, Sticky? I seem to think that I saw you post on someone else's thread with something positive...

Hi everyone

While my units aren't too bad, my behaviour when I drink is just out of control. It's back to being a bag lady - buggering off in the weekend or recovering in bed, missing social and sporting events and generally letting people down.

Am still hoping that if I manage a month or so AF I can pull this off as others here have after a break.

Have just been to youngest's futsal (indoor soccer) final. His team won their league and got a cup, so it was very exciting for them! (And the proud parents!) It's actually my birthday today. I've had a lovely day. Treated myself to a massage/facial birthday package. Hardly ever have massages/facials these days so it was extra nice. Went to my women's AA meeting then to a friend's for a catch up. Subway for dinner but tomorrow night we are going to a favourite Thai restaurant. Hubby went to a friend's rather than have the friend come here for drinks, partly for my benefit as I'm supposed to be abstaining. But I've just weakened and gone up the road for a bottle of bubbly. Have had 6 AF days and that's the longest I've gone in 15 months. Don't know if I'll be able to stay sober for a month anymore! Thinking back to my 50th last year, I did really well at my party and was even sober enough to drive home at the end of the evening. I've gone downhill lately. Will try and keep a lid on it tonight so I don't spoil yet another weekend.

Have a great weekend everyone
Cheers
Sticky

Week 1: 1,8,AF,3,AF,AF,3.5 total 15.5,3AF Week 2: AF,8,8,AF,AF,4,8 total 28, 3AF
Week 3: 4,8,AF,8,AF,5,AF total 25, 3AF Week 4: 16,AF,8,7,AF,10,AF total 41, 3AF
Week 5: 7,12,8,AF,8,AF,8 total 43, 3AF Week 6: AF,5,12,AF,AF,8,AF total 25, 4AF
Week 7: AF,14,AF,6,AF,5,AF total 25, 4AF Week 8: 8, AF, 12, 12, AF, 1.5, 1.5 total 35, 2AF
Week 9: 12, AF, 10, 2,AF, 10, AF total 32, 3AF Week 10: 9, AF, 10, AF,1.5, 6.5, AF total 27, 3AF
Week 11: 12, AF, 14, 3.5, 1, AF, 7.5 total 38, 2AF Week 12: AF, 8 AF, 9, 2, AF, AF total 19, 4AF
Week 13: 8.5, AF, 9, AF, 12, AF, 14 total 43.5, 3AF Week 14: 7.5, AF, 8, AF, AF, 9, 9 total 33.5, 3AF
Wek 15: AF, 9, AF, 9, AF, 9, 10 total 37, 3AF Week 16: total 34, 2AF
Week 17: total 32, 3AF Week 18: total 34, 4AF
Week 19: total 33, 3AF Week 20: 32, 3AF
Week 21: total 38, 3AF Week 22: 29.5, 4AF
Week 23: 34.5, 3AF Week 24: 36, 4AF
Week 25: 30.5, 3AF Week 26: 29, 3AF
Week 27: 22, 4AF Week 28: 33, 2AF
Week 29: 24, 4AF Week 30: 23, 4AF
Week 31: 19, 5AF Week 32: 29, 4AF
Week 33: 29.5, 3AF Week 34: 20, 3AF
Week 35: 35, 2AF Week 36: 20.5, 3AF
Week 37: 30, 3AF Week 38: 16, 5AF
Week 39: 32, 2AF Week 40: 23, 3AF
Week 41: 27, 3AF Week 42: 24, 4AF
Week 43: 37, 2AF Week 44: 29, 3AF
Week 45: 24, 3AF Week 46: 25, 3AF
Week 47: 29, 3AF Week 48: 25, 3AF
Week 49: 26, 2AF Week 50: 26, 1AF
Week 51: 20, 3AF Week 52: 25.5, 3AF
Week 53: 23.5, 4AF Weeks 54 - 56: 25, 3AF
Week 57: 30, 2AF, Week 58: 35, 1AF
Week 59: 16, 5AF, Week 60: 20, 4AF
Week 61: 25, 2AF, Week 62: 25, 3AF
Week 63: 20, 4AF, Week 64: 15, 4AF
Week 65: 25, 3AF, Week 66: ??
Week 67: 15, 5AF, Week 68: 19, 5AF

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STICKY!!!! And congrats on 6AF Days! Your numbers are looking pretty darn good! I hope you have a wonderful birthday weekend. Also, that is a great goal to go for, 30 days AF. Try drinking 2-3 liters of water each day. It feels good to re hydrate your system, although hard at first, you may begin to enjoy more water. It will flush out the toxins and you'll feel better.

Best of luck!

Happy birthday, Sticky! I hope you have a great weekend.

Sorry to hear about the return of bag lady (that term always makes me think of Erykah Badu), but hopefully the 6 AF days have cleared your head a bit. Don't celebrate too hard!

-H

Happy Birthday Sticky, my Kiwi Friend...

I'm sorry you're still having some extinction burst activity going on...I always like mental visual images, and I see you with these "solar flares" going on around you! I think they will burn themselves out and you will make more progress, as you have before! Congratulations on the 6 AFs...well done. I still can't seem to put 2 together comfortably, but I'm playing it by ear, and awaiting more instructions from those pesky TSM Gods...

Chrissie

Let me add my birthday wishes as well!

Keep the faith, Kiwi friend. Even though you got dealt the "scenic route" TSM card, you're far down a good road. You'll make your goal!

Now, here's a mystery: why is your signature so long? Don't you get the character limit like the rest of us or is it some sort of secret NZ social benefit we don't get up here in the states?