Heya!

Still sick, this has been two weeks! Unbelievable, I have never felt so much pain. Was feeling a little better Wednesday night so I decided to have some wine, my boyfriend bought it for me for V day one of my favorites, was too sick the night before to even think about it. Had two glasses he poured me a third which ended up down the sink. The two in my stomach ended up in the toilet it didn't quite sit to well, wasn't such a good idea. My two AF day's have been in a row and I have two now. I can picture this for myself in the future, only drinking once or twice a week. Maybe this extension process is giving me something to hold onto while being sick.?

I'm not going to spend much time, still not well. Wanted to pop in and journal a bit, also to say hey.

See ya,
Zippy

Hey Zip! I hope you start feeling better! Being sick is the worst. Plus, to think that the war being waged in your body is MICROSCOPIC is just incredible! Hang in there!

I hope you are choosing to look on the bright side of things: At least you are drinking less!

Get better soon,

Ketchikan1

Hey Zippy

I agree - hold on to the idea of only drinking 2 days per week while you are sick. I am still trying to get into only drinking 2 days per week after 14 1/2 months here!! After years of hardly ever drinking too - but that was AA stuff and b****y hard! In some ways this last year has been equally as hard as all those years in AA, but at least there is hope that we can have a chance at a "normal" social life.

Wishing you all the best
Sticky

Hi Zip,

I hope you are feeling better by now. Being sick blows! But like Ketch said, at least there is less drinking happening.

Get well soon.

Best

Thanks for all the well wishes, progressing slowly, today is the best in two weeks. I missed work all last week, luckily I was able to take it as vacation time. Wow, I was one sick little girl. On the brighter side also hopeful this is a turning point in my drinking too, my goal is 2 - 3 times a week with 8 - 12 units. I could live with that just fine and be really happy... There where nights I wanted to drink to try and feel better, something in the back of my brain said that just isn't going to happen, so why? Then the thought vanished, probably because I was in so much pain. Now that I've made it to the other side of this virus thing I want to keep feeling good. Not hung over.

Zippy Smiles

Hey Zippy,
Sorry to hear you've been so sick I checked out there for a while.... I just wanted to say that I totally think you're on the right track with this kind of thinking:
"There where nights I wanted to drink to try and feel better, something in the back of my brain said that just isn't going to happen, so why? "
Exactly! Once you can slow down that process so you're actually deciding to drink or not, you're so much further ahead towards cured!!
Feel better and hang in there,
el

Feeling better today, almost back. It feels so good you don't realize how sick you where until you start getting better. Now I don't want to do anything that will make me feel like sh*t again. That includes drinking too much, I have been afraid to. I also keep thinking about the saying "Drink Responsibly" which tells me to drink like an adult.

One girl I use to work with in AA was a dead ringer for a winner, she hit her 1 month and went off the deep end. She had a fight with her boyfriend so she decided to buy a pint, proceeded to hide behind the dumpster in the parking lot and guzzled the entire bottle. Nice, what a picture, she only lived 1 block from the store and yet couldn't wait to get home. Her history from this point has been this type of behavior a few weeks then off on a bender. Only calling me afterward uncontrollably upset because of what she had done. AA is not her thing so I told her about TSM, she still insists on drinking like this. The last time I talked to her I said try to making yourself a drink, drinking it slowly, enjoy it, you know like what an adult would do, don’t guzzle the entire bottle behind the dumpster then expect to feel good about it. Between the sobs and tears, a few chuckles she says I don't know. I don't know either and I don't know if I can help.

As for me, I am on guard now not to drink too much, I don't want the day after. I'm finding I'm not thinking about it as much since I've been sick and now on the mend. Hoping this is a turning point I am tired of being sick.

Zippy

Glad you are on the rebound, Z!

Hope you can get right back into that wacky dance thing you do and focus on your positive self!

Hey Zippy...I'm thinking about your AA friends and puzzled that the dumpster girl doesn't want to give TSM a try. Why do you think? Is it still just the "AA is the ONLY way" mindset, perhaps? So ingrained in our society. Is it the "too good to be true" factor? Well, as we move forward, I hope we will be able to be examples for others still suffering. I realize I'm not really a role model in that regard, just yet! I feel really confident I'll "get there", but I'm not in a position to be handing out advice to the outside world.

I'm thinking about my 25 year old niece who has a good friend her age who has been in AA off and on since she was 14, and what a good candidate she would be for TSM...

Chrissie

Have to get down to business I poked around enough this morning, have a busy day ahead of me, weekends are way too short.

Did have a good week no AF days kept my numbers to 2 or three in on sitting and didn't want anymore. Except for yesterday, enjoyed those margaritas too much! I went down to Detroit for a tatoo convention with my BF. I don't have one he is loaded, he had another one done on his foot, it took 5 hours! One of the best ones he has.



I had fun walking around people watching, getting some ideas if perhaps I get one someday, sitting in the lounge looking out at the river. The convention was at the Ren Cen. Took my Nally with lunch and decided to have a glass of wine around 3P. Then we went to one of our favorite Mexican restaurant’s downtown since we don't go to Detroit very often. Had a Margareta with dinner, yum... Then carried on with my own version with vodka, can't take tequila, when we got home watched a great movie "Age of Heroes" war movie, made popcorn and just enjoyed lapping up those drinks. I surprised I don’t' feel worse than I do.

This week I'm going to put more willpower into AF days, I really need to have a good week at work. My day's do go better when I'm not hung over. It's also time I get back into working out, I took it easy last week recovering from being sick the previous week.

Keep kicking, life is great, I am so happy I don't have that monkey on my back anymore!!!

Zippy's Smiling