NICE JOB!

good for you!!! sorry about the nastiness the other night though. there has been a stomach bug going around with a headache where i live - maybe that was it. or maybe just a weird wine+nal reaction. it has definitely hit me hard some nights. hope it's an isolated incident.

Well, I'm at 27 units and one day to go. So obviously I will exceed my units from last week. Still in all I'm happy. I'm feeling much more in control now with no drunkenness and no blackouts. Thanksgiving was a non event as far as alcohol was concerned. Im chaulking the increased units to the 4 day holiday weekend.

Nal on everyone and be safe this holiday. )

Hello everyone,

I hope you all had a nice holiday weekend. My recap for the week yielded 32 units, 4 more than the week prior. But because of the long 4 day weekend, I'm not surprised. And I woke up this morning thinking today will be an AF day. I'm really just not enjoying the red wine. It really tastes crappy to me unless it an expensive wine. Last night I was so happy. I forgot my full glass of wine on the counter and had gone for a seltzer to watch TV. I stood there in astonishment that I actually forgot. Hmmm thats a first.

Anyway, I received some very bad news today.... I guess I'm not going to be a grandmother after all. My daughter called me this morning and told me she lost the child. No heartbeat.... So sad and depressing. I feel so bad for her. I was beginning to really look forward to being a grandma, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I guess today will not be an AF day after all. (

Maybe tomorrow....

Nal on everyone.

Hi Nalway

I'm sorry to hear the news about the baby. I hope your daughter is doing OK. I remember one of my friends announcing she was pregnant then having the same thing happen the following week and feeling so sad for her. She went on to have her second child a year or so later.
Thanks for your post on my thread. It's hard to believe it's been nearly a year and the Xmas rush is upon us again. We don't celebrate Thanksgiving in NZ, but I can see how it would be a trigger for heavier drinking.
Keep up the good work!

Cheers
Sticky

Hi NalWO,

So sorry to hear of your daughter's miscarriage. These are so common, unfortunately. Maybe the baby was not viable in some way--often this is a cause of not living to term.

More than that though, I "hear" in the tone of your post that you are sad but full of acceptance of something that is truly beyond your control. That is a powerful and beautiful lesson!

I know you will be able to be there for your daughter. I hope she will be okay and maybe begin to take better care of herself (you mentioned she is also drinking I believe?) because of her loss.

By the way, I think I read in another person's post (Gwyneth's?) about the contentment and happiness you have found after 3 marriages and at 52. That is what I want to be able to say about myself in 5-7 years. Thanks for lighting the way!

Deja

My heart aches for you and your daughter. I had several miscarriages, most in weeks 8 or 9 but one in the second trimester. It's really truly a horrible loss every time and I was very very blue after each one. But I also now have two healthy teenagers, so there is hope for grandbabies for you yet, Nalwayout, just not this time. Hugs.

Just want to chime in with my support. It must be a terrible thing to go through. But as others have said, you may well yet be a grandmother in the future. Right now the priority is just to take care of your daughter and take care of yourself. Wishing you the best,
EL

Hey Sticky, Deja, Nipit and EL,

Thanks so much for the well wishes. Yes, its tough to lose a child. She's very sad. But with time she'll move on and perhaps try again. Although this wasn't the ideal situation anyway since it was not planned and the relationship is so new. Hopefully next time it will be the right time for her. She doesn't really want to talk about it and I can understand why. I know when it happened to me, it was a very private affair and I did not want to share it with anyone but my closest friends and family.

Anyway, on with TSM. My week went well, although I noticed a jump in my units on the weekend. Still, my week totalled 28. But good news.... tonight, I poured my third glass back into the bottle. Just didnt want it. Just did not enjoy it at all tonight for some reason. So that's one less than the norm of late. Progress....

Nal on everyone.

Hi Nalwayout

Pouring wine back into the bottle - well done!! I don't think I've done that after a year. Am rather down on myself tho', despite 4 days AF. I am still an Alcoholic. I wish you all the best with TSM.

Cheers
Sticky

Well done!!!