Hi everyone

Thanks for the posts! What an honour for our little country to host such a prestigious event. As I mentioned to EL, there is a lot of rivalry between the French and Kiwis, not only because of our English heritage, but also because of the Rainbow Warrior bombing. My family watched the final in a community theatre on the island in the gulf we sailed to. 120 people all cheering for the All Blacks, although a few of us sang the French national anthem too! It was so suspenseful!! Far too close for comfort. Of course I'm pleased we won, but I don't like the negative feeling toward the French.

Anyway, another reasonably boozy week. I actually abstained the night of the final, but only because I'd had too much the night before and 2 nights before that. Still don't have the off switch once I get started on the wine and that is a worry. I'll hold on to the fact that I can just sometimes have one or two if I go for beer.

Thurs seems to be a bad night for me. Start of a new TSM week and I often want to rip into the wine. Have had a couple already tonight and am taking our eldest son to a pre-enrolment evening at the high school he is going to next year. Will try and slow down.

Nal on everyone!

Cheers
Sticky



Week 1: 1,8,AF,3,AF,AF,3.5 total 15.5,3AF Week 2: AF,8,8,AF,AF,4,8 total 28, 3AF
Week 3: 4,8,AF,8,AF,5,AF total 25, 3AF Week 4: 16,AF,8,7,AF,10,AF total 41, 3AF
Week 5: 7,12,8,AF,8,AF,8 total 43, 3AF Week 6: AF,5,12,AF,AF,8,AF total 25, 4AF
Week 7: AF,14,AF,6,AF,5,AF total 25, 4AF Week 8: 8, AF, 12, 12, AF, 1.5, 1.5 total 35, 2AF
Week 9: 12, AF, 10, 2,AF, 10, AF total 32, 3AF Week 10: 9, AF, 10, AF,1.5, 6.5, AF total 27, 3AF
Week 11: 12, AF, 14, 3.5, 1, AF, 7.5 total 38, 2AF Week 12: AF, 8 AF, 9, 2, AF, AF total 19, 4AF
Week 13: 8.5, AF, 9, AF, 12, AF, 14 total 43.5, 3AF Week 14: 7.5, AF, 8, AF, AF, 9, 9 total 33.5, 3AF
Wek 15: AF, 9, AF, 9, AF, 9, 10 total 37, 3AF Week 16: total 34, 2AF
Week 17: total 32, 3AF Week 18: total 34, 4AF
Week 19: total 33, 3AF Week 20: 32, 3AF
Week 21: total 38, 3AF Week 22: 29.5, 4AF
Week 23: 34.5, 3AF Week 24: 36, 4AF
Week 25: 30.5, 3AF Week 26: 29, 3AF
Week 27: 22, 4AF Week 28: 33, 2AF
Week 29: 24, 4AF Week 30: 23, 4AF
Week 31: 19, 5AF Week 32: 29, 4AF
Week 33: 29.5, 3AF Week 34: 20, 3AF
Week 35: 35, 2AF Week 36: 20.5, 3AF
Week 37: 30, 3AF Week 38: 16, 5AF
Week 39: 32, 2AF Week 40: 23, 3AF
Week 41: 27, 3AF Week 42: 24, 4AF
Week 43: 37, 2AF Week 44: 29, 3AF
Week 45: 24, 3AF Week 46: 25, 3AF

I know what you mean about starting a new week and starting strong :/ I often feel like that gives me a pass for heavy drinking as well. However, I really think you are doing great. You don't mention any crippling hangovers so that is good. The off switch is pretty hard to find even for me, I find that if I have more than 3 drinks in a reasonably quick time it's almost impossible to find the off switch before drunkness (and hangover territory) occurs. You're right to point out that beer probably helps, since you have to drink more liquid and will thus slow down. Could you make wine spritzers with some seltzer maybe?

Congratulations on the rugby, you (and the rest of NZ) must be wrapped and relieved. The final was great to watch, much closer than we all expected. The French showed they deserved their spot in the final but I couldn't help feeling that the ABs were stifled by their own fear of failure. It was interesting to see the French advance on the Haka, thought an all out brawl might ensue. Anway glad to see the All Blacks win and overcome their fear of failure. Thats going to make it a bit scary for the rest of the world from now on. Good to see your figures haven't been totally over the top- you've sure had a good excuse to be. Hope you can get your figures down to where your happy with.

Hi guys

I had a couple of binges this week and a couple of bad hangovers. Hubby and I had an argument on Sat and I resorted to my old unhealthy behaviour of over-reacting then drinking too much. Spent Sun in bed recovering. Not good!!
Feeling good today though and will aim for lower units this week.
I hope everyone is going well.

Cheers
Sticky

Week 1: 1,8,AF,3,AF,AF,3.5 total 15.5,3AF Week 2: AF,8,8,AF,AF,4,8 total 28, 3AF
Week 3: 4,8,AF,8,AF,5,AF total 25, 3AF Week 4: 16,AF,8,7,AF,10,AF total 41, 3AF
Week 5: 7,12,8,AF,8,AF,8 total 43, 3AF Week 6: AF,5,12,AF,AF,8,AF total 25, 4AF
Week 7: AF,14,AF,6,AF,5,AF total 25, 4AF Week 8: 8, AF, 12, 12, AF, 1.5, 1.5 total 35, 2AF
Week 9: 12, AF, 10, 2,AF, 10, AF total 32, 3AF Week 10: 9, AF, 10, AF,1.5, 6.5, AF total 27, 3AF
Week 11: 12, AF, 14, 3.5, 1, AF, 7.5 total 38, 2AF Week 12: AF, 8 AF, 9, 2, AF, AF total 19, 4AF
Week 13: 8.5, AF, 9, AF, 12, AF, 14 total 43.5, 3AF Week 14: 7.5, AF, 8, AF, AF, 9, 9 total 33.5, 3AF
Wek 15: AF, 9, AF, 9, AF, 9, 10 total 37, 3AF Week 16: total 34, 2AF
Week 17: total 32, 3AF Week 18: total 34, 4AF
Week 19: total 33, 3AF Week 20: 32, 3AF
Week 21: total 38, 3AF Week 22: 29.5, 4AF
Week 23: 34.5, 3AF Week 24: 36, 4AF
Week 25: 30.5, 3AF Week 26: 29, 3AF
Week 27: 22, 4AF Week 28: 33, 2AF
Week 29: 24, 4AF Week 30: 23, 4AF
Week 31: 19, 5AF Week 32: 29, 4AF
Week 33: 29.5, 3AF Week 34: 20, 3AF
Week 35: 35, 2AF Week 36: 20.5, 3AF
Week 37: 30, 3AF Week 38: 16, 5AF
Week 39: 32, 2AF Week 40: 23, 3AF
Week 41: 27, 3AF Week 42: 24, 4AF
Week 43: 37, 2AF Week 44: 29, 3AF
Week 45: 24, 3AF Week 46: 25, 3AF
Week 47: 29, 3AF

I also spent sunday in bed recovering Lost days are no fun. I really want to stop having them!!

Sticky, I just love your tenacity to see TSM through to the end! Wherever that is....

You are a veteran on this site and you are one of the few remaining plugged in and active on this forum. I appreciate your posts!!!!

Enjoy those rare bed-days.... they can be mighty cozy on occasion,

Ketchikan1

Hi Sticky, how many times have your arguments led to you drinking too much? Many. You can't continue to let alcohol be your crutch forever. Maybe you like it that way I'm not meaning to negative Sticky, I want to see you cross the line too, but I feel like I echoe your own frustration. I'd love to see you dig in and assert your control over this beast. Hope you have a good week.

Hi Sticky, I have been thinking about my last post and thought i was probably a bit harsh there. I know you don't pick fights deliberately. As for using alcohol as a crutch, that comment wasn't fair either. We all do that and have done for a long time and TSM is here to help us learn how NOT to use alcohol as our only problem solving tool. I do sincerely hope and believe you will get there and I do admire your committment to stay the course. Once again, sorry to be a little harsh earlier, really do hope your having a better week.

hang in there, sticky. sorry for the bad week! good job looking forward!
nal on!
--pp

Hi everyone

Thanks for the support guys. No offense taken Warren. Believe it or not I have come a long way in not overreacting to things people say (especially hubby), but I guess there's lots of room for improvement!
Last weekend was kinda crap too. Wasn't triggered by any argument, but just drank to much and felt practically suicidal on Saturday. Came right again quickly enough, but it is discouraging to feel like that after all this time. The rest of the week has been much better, so onwards and upwards.
Next week Mon-Fri I am going on a school trip with my 13 year old. The kids are going to stay on farms while the teachers and parents will be in a motel. Where we are going they are currently filming "The Hobbit" so I hope we see some action. Maybe we'll meet someone famous in the local pub?!
I enjoy school trips so am looking forward to it.
Will update next weekend.
Have a great week everyone!

Cheers
Sticky

Week 1: 1,8,AF,3,AF,AF,3.5 total 15.5,3AF Week 2: AF,8,8,AF,AF,4,8 total 28, 3AF
Week 3: 4,8,AF,8,AF,5,AF total 25, 3AF Week 4: 16,AF,8,7,AF,10,AF total 41, 3AF
Week 5: 7,12,8,AF,8,AF,8 total 43, 3AF Week 6: AF,5,12,AF,AF,8,AF total 25, 4AF
Week 7: AF,14,AF,6,AF,5,AF total 25, 4AF Week 8: 8, AF, 12, 12, AF, 1.5, 1.5 total 35, 2AF
Week 9: 12, AF, 10, 2,AF, 10, AF total 32, 3AF Week 10: 9, AF, 10, AF,1.5, 6.5, AF total 27, 3AF
Week 11: 12, AF, 14, 3.5, 1, AF, 7.5 total 38, 2AF Week 12: AF, 8 AF, 9, 2, AF, AF total 19, 4AF
Week 13: 8.5, AF, 9, AF, 12, AF, 14 total 43.5, 3AF Week 14: 7.5, AF, 8, AF, AF, 9, 9 total 33.5, 3AF
Wek 15: AF, 9, AF, 9, AF, 9, 10 total 37, 3AF Week 16: total 34, 2AF
Week 17: total 32, 3AF Week 18: total 34, 4AF
Week 19: total 33, 3AF Week 20: 32, 3AF
Week 21: total 38, 3AF Week 22: 29.5, 4AF
Week 23: 34.5, 3AF Week 24: 36, 4AF
Week 25: 30.5, 3AF Week 26: 29, 3AF
Week 27: 22, 4AF Week 28: 33, 2AF
Week 29: 24, 4AF Week 30: 23, 4AF
Week 31: 19, 5AF Week 32: 29, 4AF
Week 33: 29.5, 3AF Week 34: 20, 3AF
Week 35: 35, 2AF Week 36: 20.5, 3AF
Week 37: 30, 3AF Week 38: 16, 5AF
Week 39: 32, 2AF Week 40: 23, 3AF
Week 41: 27, 3AF Week 42: 24, 4AF
Week 43: 37, 2AF Week 44: 29, 3AF
Week 45: 24, 3AF Week 46: 25, 3AF
Week 47: 29, 3AF Week 48: 25, 3AF