Hi EL

I still really look forward to drinking after a couple of AF days, after all this time. I feel so pleased when I can stick to 2 or 3.
Had some professional family photos taken today and the photographer was French. We chatted in French at the end. I am so out of practice! Will be thinking of you on Sunday night our time when the All Blacks take on the French.

Cheers
Sticky

Good Morning EL,

Your numbers are looking great! And I can relate to the old pull to drink more. I experienced that same feeling of the cravings going away and then coming back. But keep going, you're doing great.

Best

Weekly recap time: 12.5. TWELVE AND A HALF!!!! I am pleased as punch. This was about my perfect week: one weekday night with some drinks; a slightly rowdy friday night with friends (7 drinks, the most of that week), and an almost entirely booze free rest of the weekend, filled with friends and exercise and food and movies and haunted houses and all sorts of NON-BOOZY FUN. It just makes me feel great and so alive. If I could maintain this sort of week every week, I think I would be a much more stable and happy person...but alas every once in a while the pull gets too strong. But I really feel like a change is happening, where the idea of getting drunk, and the feeling of being drunk, are becoming less and less appealing. It's almost like when I do get drunk now, it's just on the memory of how much fun drunk used to be, not because I'm actually enjoying it in the moment.
Some good developments professionally as well - no actual job found yet, but I am pulling in enough freelance work that I am seriously considering just staying freelance and taking my chances. The work I am doing now is really interesting - much more so than any office job I might get. So food for thought but the IMMEDIATe pressure is off. Still pretty damn poor right now, but it looks like I get to stay in my apartment
Things are completely smoothed over with the boyfriend now - in fact they are actually amazing. When I don't drink too much and he doesn't cut himself off from the rest of the world too much....we are a winning pair
I'll check in with everyone's posts tomorrow - knackered now and I've been too busy living life honestly these past few days!!
EL

You rock, EL!!!!

great post EL! glad you had such a great week! yay on your units and getting some more freelance work! i hope this week is even better!

Congrats EL! You are my inspiration this week! Lwts make it a good one.

Way to go!! You're really on the way!!

What a great post, EL.

It sounds like everything in your life is really falling into place - you deserve it, kid.

-H

Ditto EL

I'm really happy for you. Low units, enough freelance work and good relationship. Fantastic!!

God, that rugby final was a nail biter! We were in a local community theatre with 120 people cheering the AB's. Sorry the AB's didn't mention the French afterwards though. There is still a lot of ill feeling in NZ re the French, ever since the Rainbow Warrior bombing. I try to tell people (hubby included) that your average French person had nothing to do with that, but it doesn't register. My mum & dad (who also speak French) were out recently and heard some Kiwis making rude comments about the French within earshot of some French tourists. They went up to them and wished them good luck for the game.

I hope you are having another excellent week and thanks for all your support.

Cheers
Sticky

Sticky, I feel like an idiot - you know I had NEVER HEARD of that incident? It sounds horrible. I'm definitely not going to defend my country on that one... I really had no idea there was bad blood between France and NZ (outside of the age-old rugby feud, of course). Wow. I'm an idiot. In my defence I was only three when this happened....


As for the drinking update, I have been feeling really under the weather and thus not drinking much. I'm really annoyed as I had a super fun and healthy weekend, including a 6 mile run and then a yoga class on Monday, and what do I get but massively sick with a fever on Tuesday. so going into Thursday my drink count is actually 1 for the whole week lol. This weekend is Halloween though, so assuming I am well enough to go out, I will be doing some drinking Friday + Saturday. My goal is to keep it under 15 units for the week.